Saturday, April 25, 2026 (Real tolerance)

I passed by a christian graveyard while walking back to my accommodation after finishing my work. I have recognized an interesting thing that some tombs are in different angle from the other tombs. I stopped and tried to figure out the actual story behind the oddness. Suddenly I found that some Muslim tombs were also in the graveyard. The scenario made me emotional to see the brotherhood between two communities. 

Monday, March 23 2026 (Clueless)

Am I strange or just clueless?

I have been searching for self-actualization and a meaningful way of life. In fact, living life with a purpose and intention is my core principle of my life. I stop after a while to think and to reinvent myself. I know I waste a lot of time but self actualization is my prime priority. 

While most of the people are obsessed with materialistic things and follow the wive of a robotic life. Sometimes I am so surprised that people do not make any lesson from the movies of Imtiaz Ali. He made a lot of movies that inspired me to reshape my thinking pattern and to see the world in a different perspective. I feel that I am clueless. However, the clueless way of living actual aligns with my purpose of the life. 

 

Friday, March 06, 2026 (My work ethics)

I have recognized my work ethics in a unique position among my community. As a result, I think and rethink about my philosophy towards my professional life.  

Starting the story from the beginning can make sense. It was 2016 when I hold an internee position and made a general conversation about the work with my immediate supervisor. Honestly, I was not happy with my work until that particular day as I only thought about initial benefits and pressure of the work. In the conversation, he told me that learning from the work was the key factor for him. I noted the point in my mind and I tried to follow him. After passing a few days later, I found that he got satisfaction after performing his best in the tasks. I was surprised with the fact and tried the same thing with me as well.

In the passing years, I got opportunity to work with many supervisors and the most dangerous thing about my brain was that it adopted the positive things from my supervisors. Another supervisor who guided me some one month remained silent all the time. I gained some inspiration earned from another supervisor. The supervisor was very energetic in doing work and I generally try to complete my work quickly inspired by him.

Finally, I actually felt better that I accomplished something in a right way. It does not matter whether I am recognized or not. Mentally, I am satisfied with my work and it is necessary for me in case of any job. It is suitable for me to love my work and to avoid comparing it with any monetary benefits. I know 99.99% people will consider it childish behavior. I did these many times in my life time. For-example: clients directly told me that they had a budget of 400 or 500 USD. However, I undertook those works in half budget if the project was exciting for me.

I know good work deserves a better pay rate but I consider it a secondary factor. For me, performing my best in the working place is the primary thing even though my salary is very low or the job is challenging. That is the way I love my work and my core concept does not only rely on the benefits from the work.  

My final word is that

people think that someone is an idiot, stupid and brainless if someone loves to do his work without thinking about benefits or someone is highly passionate about the work and does his work as per the rules and regulation without ignoring responsibility.

I can proudly say that “Yes, I am the idiot or stupid or brainless person who loves his task and does it with honest effort. And it does not matter for me whether it is physically or mentally challenging for me.

Wedness day, February 25, 2026 (Ending of dark period)

The winter is coming to an end when the summer is going to knock the door soon. I thought the winter would be dark, lifeless and depressing time. The sun hides behind the cloud all the time and the light disappeared quick after starting the sunrise. Nature looks like the screen of a horror movie where everything is dull and lifeless without any greenery. It is quite Normal for depression to occur under those circumstances. However, expecting the worst-case scenario may help to tackle the negative forces. In the same way, the period of darkness was not too much bad for me at all. In fact, I enjoyed the season with various functions and activities. The quietness of winter provided peace to my mind. 

Sunday, February 15, 2026 (Work more and expect less)

I follow some philosophies strictly and one of them is "work more and expect less". However, it was neither created automatically nor was it inherent within me. In my life time, I have been improving myself and I believe that I have many shortcomings. I am open for changes and ready to accept a philosophy if it has potentially noble. It was in 2015 that our teacher, Abu Isa Nur, presented the quotation during an HRM lecture. 

Before knowing about the philosophical idea of it, I used to expect low for it as well. It became an integrate part of my life. I work and work to improve each and everything. At the same time, I always pressurize myself to give my best for any task. when it comes to the outcome of my work, I never expect the best scenario. I always expect the lowest one for me. 

I know many people who criticize me for the habit. But they forget about two crucial things including continuous improvement and happiness. If I undervalue my work, I located my limitations and there is a scope for improvement. Additionally, expecting less and getting more makes me happy and thankful to the creator. If being happy and thankful to the creator is an act of stupidity, I love to be that stupid. 

I got 69 marks for the dissertation and one of my friends wanted to know about my feelings. I still feel that the result is above my expectation. I had doubts whether I would pass or not. Thus, I am happy for it as I earned it with my dedication. My efforts satisfies my mind that I am able to work hard and I will continuous it in future. 

 

 

Tuesday, January 20, 2026

I attended a presentation for the dissertation defense yesterday which was the officially last academic activity. I plan to rest this week and think about upcoming future. I will set some achievable goals for the next 2 years in order to fulfilling the ultimate goal in next five years. I think I am again in the right direction with some goals. After 2020, I had no further plan in my life and I passed my life from 2020 to 2023 without any significant milestone. Though I will be a full time worker within few days, I am excited to plan each and every thing right now. Hopefully everything will go as per plan. 

Tuesday, January 13, 2026

The busy period is coming to end now. I was heavily engaged in writing my dissertation for one and a half month. Though I am still not confident about the work, I tried my best to write it. 

Friday, November 30, 2025 (Opportunistic)

People hold various perceptions about life. More or less they follow an ideology which is influenced by the various factors including religion. I always love to know about the philosophy of others as it enriches my knowledge with new ideas. I always respect other's philosophy even though it is completely opposite to my thought. However, I have faced some unique adverse human ideology which does not follow any rules and regulation. I never appreciate that people hold a philosophy and they change or break it while getting benefits. The philosophy should be called opportunistic and they do not have ethical values at all. On the top of that, they always try to twist the facts as per their benefits. 

I saw the same thing when I was in Bangladesh. Right now, I observe it in extreme level especially among Bangladeshi communities and become frustrated. My frustration arises due to two main reasons.

Firstly, I want to believe that the world is a great place and people are generally kind and honest. Rules and regulations exist in the world and we have to follow them sincerely. The fundamental problem is that people's opportunistic behavior breaks my myth about the world. Most people of my community follow a common ideology though they are not strict to it. When one opportunity arrives, people try to grab it without thinking about philosophy or ideology or even ethical behavior. 

Secondly, they are proving that my father was right about the world. I know he had more experience about practical life and always tried to protect me. In contrast, I tried to convince him that people were helpful and honest mostly. 

Friday, October 31, 2025 (Transition period)

The autumn is one of the most beautiful season in the UK from my point of view when the nature is in colorful and vibrant mood. A combination of Reddish, yellowish and green hues is observed in the environment during the season. Fallen yellow and red leaves look like a painting on the ground. It is almost the ending time of autumn and the winter is knocking at door now. Winter, a period of long & cold nights, is not only harsh but also challenging for everyone. The natural landscape looks like a screen of a horror movie. 

The transition from autumn to winter highly makes me think about the life and realizes me that nothing remains same forever. The same thing happen with the period of prosperity. People forget thinking about upcoming adverse period while they are enjoying their victorious moments. Post-success decline makes a setback which is more challenging for us to regain the achieved position. Hence, it is essential for individuals to make proper plan in order to defend the upcoming stressful period. 

For me, I am scared of having positive phase as a difficult period may wait for me. I think and rethink about my situation and prepare for potential treats while enjoying the session. However, I feel relaxed and happy while facing tough time. Because I know that there will be an end of the period and the next period will be covered with success and joy. 

Thursday, October 30, 2025 (Why am I stress-free? part-6, Ending)

I want to go back towards my previous problem and I don't mind to rethink about the previous life. 

Though it is the last option, it is not considered the worst possible choice for me. I don't have any desire to go back at all. However, a tiny greedy part exists inside my heart which indicates me about leaving all the things and going back. Beyond the existence of that devil inside me, there are some logic behind my last option as well. 

Firstly, I did not leave any huge opportunity in Bangladesh like others. For-example: Some of my classmates left high income jobs or government jobs due to pursue opportunities in the UK. I had healthy income as a freelancer but I have confidence to regain my position within few months even to gain a better position than the previous one. Because I did not resign from any position which was achieved after spending several years. 

Secondly, I did not leave my country only to have a better life but my determination to the act stated due to anger for some specific people. I have observed a particular aspect about myself that my anger is not permanent. My mother has been waiting for me since February. Someday fire of my anger will die down and my mood may change. 

Finally, I can redefine myself with the experience that I achieve from the UK. Whenever I completed a struggling period, I redefined me and made myself a better human. Right now, It is my surviving period where I am learning a lot of new things. If I go back to Bangladesh, I will definitely extend my capacity. 

If It becomes true, the scenario will be normal for me as well. Because I regard the journey as a form of vacation for me. Thus, going back will be a scenario like coming back to home after having a long vacation. It will not be a huge loss for me but a life time experience. 

Friday, October 24, 2025 (Silence)

Silence is one of the most vital act that people should use as a powerful tool to focus deeply on any complex issue. Being silence does not mean that you don't know about anything. But it indicates that you are a great listener and engage in deep thinking at the same time. Silence improves our thinking pattern and plans whereas a talkative person wastes a lot of time in gossiping with others. Additionally, it improves determination to achieve our goals. A silent person thinks more deeply about his ultimate targets and makes strategies to achieve them. In contrast, expressing persons are engaged to talk with other most of the time. Moreover, It is very difficult to understand the philosophy and plan of a silent person as they do not share their plans or philosophy easily with anyone. The silent person can understand the philosophy and ideas of others and make a new road map from those ideas. 

I don't like to talk without any specific purpose in my life time and most people may consider the behavior as a psychological problem. I was told the thing by many relatives at past. I never took their words seriously and never tried to improve at all. However, I would like to act various characters and talkative person is one of my character that I play in my real life. I have found that I become too much expressive now-a-days. The phenomenon is not bad though it does not align with my mission and vision. I found some observations about expressive persons.

Why do people like to gossip?

In general, talking is not brain storming at all. People especially talkative persons mostly discuss or share stories of their life.  Feeling rewarding to express my stories towards others is common due to two reasons. 

Additionally, I believe that everyone is hero in his own world and everyone say anything in his own perspective. Because of the assumption, everyone expressed a life story centering himself or herself. So, it is commonly rewarding for them to provide information about a specific incident when he or she plays a central role like a protagonist. 

Moreover, human being is very lazy when it comes to use brain. Definitely, Brain works for recalling the memory and communication for those activities. Nevertheless, Brain is not used for analyzing any complex thing. People feel relaxed without utilizing analytic part of the brain. For that fact, gossiping is a pleasure activity for most people. 

Benefits

I found few things in which majority of observations has negative impact in my life and few things go with my favor. The first positive things is that I got a plenty of ideas from others and their perspective about various matters. Thus, My knowledge was enriched with those ideas and philosophies. I got many ideas to solve problems as well. 

Most of the issues loose its complexity with passing time. As a result, remaining silent is the wise decision during that period. 

I was a determined person in order to hiding my actual plan and long term vision once. It helped me a lot for achieving many targets in my life. I found out solution for any unwanted issue with the help of silence and patience. 

Drawbacks

However, the talkative nature created many serious issues. I started loosing my focus on any matter due to expressing my opinion in term of sayings. It takes a plenty amount of time to chitchat with others and those time period would be used to generate ideas or to do something for future. Revealing ideas is another problem which is almost impossible for a chatty to prevent. The major challenge is that talkative nature spoils future surprises. For-example: I plan to learn a skill and have a strategy to follow it. Somehow, I start expressing my plan to everyone. The intensity to do the activity does not remain same for my case after expressing my future target. 

Once my father said to me that saying any information to other maned you selling precious words and listening to others was an activity of buying precious words from the speaker. He added that you should have been a buyer rather that a seller in order to remaining in the wise side. 

Finally, I am on the way of becoming a determined person again in case of silence. 

Thursday, October 2, 2025 (Rewatching "My name is Khan")

Last week, I rewatched "My name is Khan" which was released in 2010. It was my favorite movie of 2010 and almost all the movies of SRK are my favorite. The movie was released in 2010 and watching the movie again was essential to test if it is a cult classic movie.

In my opinion, we may fail to appreciate a good movie when it is released first due to having fact of vision and different trend of movies. 

Some movies become big hits by following a trend. However, we realize that those movies are not great at all after the trend fades. Some movies are ahead of its time which is seemed to irrelevant today. Nevertheless, we understand the concept after passing a certain time. To test the quality of a movie, I always prefer to watch it again after some time has passed. 

First of all, The story of the movie was relevant to the world at that time. western people speculate Muslim communities and Muslim people experienced discrimination and hardship in the early 2000s. Though there were reasons behind the phenomenon, acts of few people did not represent the whole community. The movie perfectly showed the situation of the community in early 2000s. 

The songs of the movie were entirely blended with ongoing circumstances and "Noor-E-Khuda" was the soul of the movie. The love story between leading characters developed in a meaningful manner. The film carried some core massages including judging people in terms of good and bad, avoid considering every Muslim as a terrorist, helping everyone without seeing the religion or race of the person. Finally, The performances of main characters were unbeatable. SRK completely did justice with his role "Rizwan Khan". His way of delivering dialogues, showing emotions and innocent moments would touch everyone's heart. Similarly, the female character played by Kajol was excellent as well. 

Right now, India is ruled by the extreme right wing government which tries to separate the society on the basis of religion due to getting votes and remaining in the power. But that "divide and rule" does not work in the long run. The movie will be a cult classic movie in future where people seem everything without having extremist outlook.