Saturday, September 19, 2026 (Why can we not see the reality?)

It is easy to calculate a situation which has multiple outcomes. However, someone prefers a particular one among a series of multiple expected results. The person may avoid many possible right paths (which is calculative) and selects & defends their own views. 

I think a lot about the matter. In the end, I can remember 2 things in which one was the words of my father and second is one of the principles of the research taught by Dr. Nazia. 

My father always said to me "always try to listen as much as possible without providing any feedback". I follow it all the time and it has many positive sides. Firstly, it gives you opportunities to hear all the things about the matter and you come to know the full details of it. Moreover, opposing the opinion may make the advisor to control over the topic. Hence, the advise taker may have only half picture. 

Secondly, Dr. Nazia said "you may have your own knowledge and opinion about the research topic but you must have blind brain to accept the truth and to conclude it without any bias.". It is the proper way to find out the real outcomes. 

In reality, people have some knowledge about a topic and they try to prove that they have knowledge about it. They never give up all the ideas due to having ego. The art of thinking zero is not easily achievable by general people. It is a process of purifying thoughts and realizing the fact that we are nothing. 

Tuesday, August 18, 2026 (New Targets - Back in action)

I think that I have been living in a simulation for last 6 months. The main issue is that I have taken everything forever which is basically an illusion. After a long period of time, I realized myself about the world and situation. I take actions whenever I become dishearten. However, I take actions to improve myself rather than to do any action against any person. 

I lost my track in December for sure and I had some plans in my mind before that and tried to execute those. In the end, late is better than never. I have 4 plans to execute in next 6 months and it will be a success if I complete even 75% of them.  

Sunday, August 10, 2026 (self-actualization)

I have been rethinking about my life for past few weeks. I think that I have started thinking about my own potential again. It is the first time that I actually become self actualized since my arrival in the UK. I need some time to plan and execute my plan. However, there are many barriers that will impact my journey. In the positive note, I consider myself as a fighter who always wants to achieve something little higher than own ability.  

Tuesday, July 28, 2026 (Uncertainity)

Sometimes, it is better to experience the uncertainty. No one plans to experience uncertainty but it arrives unexpectedly. Somehow, I think that I am waiting for the unexpected result or situation. I feel that I get the escape velocity again. 

Wednessday, May 27, 2026 (Eid Day)

Today is the Eid ul Azhar in the UK. It is considered the second most celebrated event in Bangladesh after Eid ul Fitr. However, The day remains an ordinary working day for me. Though I don't have any plan to celebrate it in a great way, there is nothing especial at all. It is life and the situation is quite normal. Sometime ordinary thing becomes extraordinary and sometime extraordinary thing becomes ordinary. 

Saturday, April 25, 2026 (Real tolerance)

I passed by a christian graveyard while walking back to my accommodation after finishing my work. I have recognized an interesting thing that some tombs are in different angle from the other tombs. I stopped and tried to figure out the actual story behind the oddness. Suddenly I found that some Muslim tombs were also in the graveyard. The scenario made me emotional to see the brotherhood between two communities. 

Monday, March 23 2026 (Clueless)

Am I strange or just clueless?

I have been searching for self-actualization and a meaningful way of life. In fact, living life with a purpose and intention is my core principle of my life. I stop after a while to think and to reinvent myself. I know I waste a lot of time but self actualization is my prime priority. 

While most of the people are obsessed with materialistic things and follow the wive of a robotic life. Sometimes I am so surprised that people do not make any lesson from the movies of Imtiaz Ali. He made a lot of movies that inspired me to reshape my thinking pattern and to see the world in a different perspective. I feel that I am clueless. However, the clueless way of living actual aligns with my purpose of the life. 

 

Friday, March 06, 2026 (My work ethics)

I have recognized my work ethics in a unique position among my community. As a result, I think and rethink about my philosophy towards my professional life.  

Starting the story from the beginning can make sense. It was 2016 when I hold an internee position and made a general conversation about the work with my immediate supervisor. Honestly, I was not happy with my work until that particular day as I only thought about initial benefits and pressure of the work. In the conversation, he told me that learning from the work was the key factor for him. I noted the point in my mind and I tried to follow him. After passing a few days later, I found that he got satisfaction after performing his best in the tasks. I was surprised with the fact and tried the same thing with me as well.

In the passing years, I got opportunity to work with many supervisors and the most dangerous thing about my brain was that it adopted the positive things from my supervisors. Another supervisor who guided me some one month remained silent all the time. I gained some inspiration earned from another supervisor. The supervisor was very energetic in doing work and I generally try to complete my work quickly inspired by him.

Finally, I actually felt better that I accomplished something in a right way. It does not matter whether I am recognized or not. Mentally, I am satisfied with my work and it is necessary for me in case of any job. It is suitable for me to love my work and to avoid comparing it with any monetary benefits. I know 99.99% people will consider it childish behavior. I did these many times in my life time. For-example: clients directly told me that they had a budget of 400 or 500 USD. However, I undertook those works in half budget if the project was exciting for me.

I know good work deserves a better pay rate but I consider it a secondary factor. For me, performing my best in the working place is the primary thing even though my salary is very low or the job is challenging. That is the way I love my work and my core concept does not only rely on the benefits from the work.  

My final word is that

people think that someone is an idiot, stupid and brainless if someone loves to do his work without thinking about benefits or someone is highly passionate about the work and does his work as per the rules and regulation without ignoring responsibility.

I can proudly say that “Yes, I am the idiot or stupid or brainless person who loves his task and does it with honest effort. And it does not matter for me whether it is physically or mentally challenging for me.

Wedness day, February 25, 2026 (Ending of dark period)

The winter is coming to an end when the summer is going to knock the door soon. I thought the winter would be dark, lifeless and depressing time. The sun hides behind the cloud all the time and the light disappeared quick after starting the sunrise. Nature looks like the screen of a horror movie where everything is dull and lifeless without any greenery. It is quite Normal for depression to occur under those circumstances. However, expecting the worst-case scenario may help to tackle the negative forces. In the same way, the period of darkness was not too much bad for me at all. In fact, I enjoyed the season with various functions and activities. The quietness of winter provided peace to my mind. 

Sunday, February 15, 2026 (Work more and expect less)

I follow some philosophies strictly and one of them is "work more and expect less". However, it was neither created automatically nor was it inherent within me. In my life time, I have been improving myself and I believe that I have many shortcomings. I am open for changes and ready to accept a philosophy if it has potentially noble. It was in 2015 that our teacher, Abu Isa Nur, presented the quotation during an HRM lecture. 

Before knowing about the philosophical idea of it, I used to expect low for it as well. It became an integrate part of my life. I work and work to improve each and everything. At the same time, I always pressurize myself to give my best for any task. when it comes to the outcome of my work, I never expect the best scenario. I always expect the lowest one for me. 

I know many people who criticize me for the habit. But they forget about two crucial things including continuous improvement and happiness. If I undervalue my work, I located my limitations and there is a scope for improvement. Additionally, expecting less and getting more makes me happy and thankful to the creator. If being happy and thankful to the creator is an act of stupidity, I love to be that stupid. 

I got 69 marks for the dissertation and one of my friends wanted to know about my feelings. I still feel that the result is above my expectation. I had doubts whether I would pass or not. Thus, I am happy for it as I earned it with my dedication. My efforts satisfies my mind that I am able to work hard and I will continuous it in future. 

 

 

Tuesday, January 20, 2026

I attended a presentation for the dissertation defense yesterday which was the officially last academic activity. I plan to rest this week and think about upcoming future. I will set some achievable goals for the next 2 years in order to fulfilling the ultimate goal in next five years. I think I am again in the right direction with some goals. After 2020, I had no further plan in my life and I passed my life from 2020 to 2023 without any significant milestone. Though I will be a full time worker within few days, I am excited to plan each and every thing right now. Hopefully everything will go as per plan. 

Tuesday, January 13, 2026

The busy period is coming to end now. I was heavily engaged in writing my dissertation for one and a half month. Though I am still not confident about the work, I tried my best to write it.