Tuesday, 26 August 2014

The night before the last night I stayed in my sister's house. The last time when I stayed in her home was in 2004. From a decade things have been changing. Changing is not too speedy but continuously.

Sunday, 03 August 2014

Last day, I went to my mother to tell her something. Before saying any word, she asked me what I wanted to say. There was something to say. Infact there is still something to tell her but I did not say anything. 

Sunday, 27 July 2014

It's raining now. I wish I got wet in this rain.  But it's 1.30Am and it's too late. Maybe tomorrow will be the last day of Ramadan. It is a great Ramadan for me. Ramadan and FIFA world occurred at the same time. And some exams were also held. Those days will never return and if return, things behind us will not be same. :)

Thursday, 24 July 2014

First time I was in town at 1am. It was amazing, roads were not crowded, no traffic jam existed. People were not in hurry. They just walked with their own speed. Everything became slow. It's like a battle field where they wanted to win against them. At day they usually follow other's direction but at night They follow their own direction. So, it is a war between own direction and other's direction. I saw some individuals playing football at a road. That was really funny.
 

Monday, June 02, 2014

What is right and what is wrong?

When some things come in our favor, we consider it as right. In the same way, when some things go against us, we consider it as wrong. This is a tradition to determine right and wrong. This tradition to determine wrong and right shows that people are selfish. We want to gain power, money, status, benefits and many more things. To gain those, we wrongly convert wrong things into right and right things into wrong. Some persons demonstrate other’s fault behavior but hide their own faults. We must follow the right path before talking about right and wrong. Otherwise it had better not talk about it.

Right: When anything is morally correct, honorable, rightful, lawful and equally judged for all, it may be defined as right.

Wrong: When anything is incorrect, unlawful and immoral for society, it may be defined as wrong.

A person cannot change the society or a small group cannot change the society. We have been losing our moral values since childhood. Society, friends, family show us that power, money and benefits are more valuable than moral values. Education may develop our moral value but we study to earn the certificates, not to earn knowledge or develop moral values. In this situation, it is not expected to draw a huge change in our life. Maybe the entire situation will change in future. I do not deny that I am a part of this system or I am not saying that I am different. Evaluate yourself before evaluating others. Judge yourself before judging other. In the end of the day,think what you did and what you should have done. :) 

Monday, April 07, 2014

Today I have realized many things. I never expect anything from others. Expectation defines the level of satisfaction. And satisfaction can’t be calculated in term of number. Thus it has nothing to express in a proper way. Others can’t see it or feel it. It hides from whole world. I have been following something like that. There is no existence in real world.

Distance can make you stronger

When there is a moment of depression.

Distance can make you happier

When you laugh to hide your pain

Distance can make you satisfied

When you know that your closer companions can’t see your unbearable situation

20 March 2014, Thursday

I attended the first class of my fifth semester. I was in the class but I actually didn't there. It is an another normal day. Everything is normal except one thing. One basic thing which is a part of my life. Without it, I don't think that I can live. I know I am not perfect as well as good enough. I can make you happy but I can't take place on someone's heart.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Hypothesis is a statement that estimates informations and gives an approximate result. No mathematical application can estimate someone's heart. I love prediction for others. And my calculation gives me perfect answer. But I never calculate their feelings, emotions as well as the way of thinking. I only calculate their performances. Someone told me that I did not have heart to feel someone's feeling.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Darkness realizes me that it is better for me. I have a strong relationship with this darkness. When I followed this darkness, I got a way to find out me. I love darkness because it hides me from the whole world. When there is no light, no one can see my real face as well as my weakness. I love to hide things. People can’t access on my brain until I will give them my password. The main thing is that I have started fearing this darkness once again. 

Monday, February 3, 2014

Life is a set of problems. When the situation is under controlled, a new problem enters into the life. I feel that actually this time the situation is more critical. Trusting someone can generate a problem and that problem is to create a pressure. Now someone starts trusting me and I feel too much pressure. This pressure assumes that I have also a trust on her trust. And I just don’t want to disappoint her.

Friday, January 31, 2014

After a long period of time, I am writing. Many things went and many things remain unchanged. I am not able to recognize the activities which occur around me. I have lost my sense and maybe it is the starting point of a new journey. But no one knows it’s effects until it will arrive.
It feels great
When you express your feelings properly
When you say what you want to say
When you write some things for yourself
When you start living for you

Wednesday, 2014 January 08

It feels great when someone also thinks about you. I am not able to access other's brain but I can feel something; maybe I am right or maybe I am wrong; It is not a fact because I know that I am not the best option for her.