Monday, 30 May, 2016

Sometimes I feel that i fail in the life. Everything seems so difficult that i can not stand with this situation. Every comment is like a slang to me. I become hyper often which is extremely rare thing in me. No one can observe my situation. All the pain, Frustration blow off tears. Tears that have no value to anyone, are valueless. Whenever I was alone, I smiled a lot. Now smile turns into tears :(

Wednesday, 11 May, 2016

I have just recognized that my CGPA goes above 3.75 first time. A journey that started with 3.53 and ends at 3.75 now. I just tried to remain just above 3.5 when I completed my 1st semester. But heavily fluctuation in the second semester gave me hope that it might be more than 3.60. After completing my 4th semester, I never thought about CGPA. 

Beginning of a Depression (1-10may)

I am a frustrated person for sure. I take time to deliver my best. But every extra unit of pressure makes me more frustrated. When nearest people do this, things go worst. Though I have plans to execute, everyone will fail to fall in with plans. Every single drop of depression makes me more depressed. This scenario becomes crucial when someone teases for the existing situation. I felt alone once and I loved to stay in the darkness. This habit re-enters in my life. But a cloud of unhappiness is coming toward me and it will cast off my life for a period. I am just preparing for that period. Successful persons shows their achievements hiding their failure.

Saturday, April 30, 2016

30 April, A date that has an own importance in my life has just arrived. I did not have any plan to make it special but maybe fortune made it special. I just took it an ordinary day but everything intended to make it an extraordinary day.

A thing is more beautiful when it is made by fortune

Sunday, 17 April, 2016

My presentation for defense has been done today. Everything is fine and my performance is OK as I expected much lower. Basically I get nervous when I present something in front of audiences. I am really thankful to Akter Kamal sir who appreciated my performance once. After then I got a strong confidence for presentation. 4 year has passed in a sudden but I never bored with ongoing process. The next journey will be harder.

When something is started, it must be accomplished

If starting is not perfect, it does not matter

But having an excellent end is a thing of matter :)

Thursday, March 31, 2016

I have used my voting right first time today. But I am not proud. When things are not in process, everything must be destructive silently. This silent is neither permanent nor universal. I have been forced to vote openly which does not make sense. It should not have been like this. I deeply realize that I have done a wrong thing rather than a wrong thing happening with me. Now I am thinking why I have gone to vote. I am always happy with my visualized life. Whenever I become realistic, I am depressed. Someday the silent will break and the result will be destructive again.

People don’t consider long term benefits but they are happy with ongoing things.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

The people who are considered as helpful persons may not be necessarily useful for you. Because they may help only the persons who insist for a favor to them, forgetting about commitment they have made. Things in process maybe observed hardly by them but things out of the process are not observed as hard as things in process. Because requesting or insisting is everything for them. When you make someone realize to do some things, it is you responsibility to accomplish it rather than to help people at random because of insisting. I have no objections against them because I know they don’t see everything equally.

It is easy to get someone's help when you are out of process.
But it is hard to get someone's help or approximately impossible to get someone's help when you are in process