Wednesday, August 26, 2020 (life continues)

It doesn't matter how bad scenario someone is facing. The life continues and goes on. Sometimes, it is quite impossible to know about your situation by your nearby people. Life is like a house of cards where everything is quite uncertain. No one knows what uncertain situation will arrive in upcoming future. We can plan for future with strong prediction and plan may be supported by alternatives. But future is still uncertain. 

Whatever problems I am facing are completely my matter. I don't want to share it as I don't want to keep it myself. Once I didn't like to getting pain. Then getting pain became a habit and now it becomes an addiction. 

Still I believe and strengthen my mind to overcome each and every situation. After a long period of time, my heart is actually broken by some incidents. It doesn't matter because the life continues. 😇😇😇

Saturday, August 08, 2020 (loosing focus)

 It is quite natural to loose focus. I often loose focus on the main target but I recognize it and fix it up quickly. After a long period of time, I feel that I am loosing my focus on almost everything. The reason behind it is obviously routine less life. One of the influencing things is the large scale of time available during the period of lockdown. 

I was not organized. At the same time, there were no compulsory duties like study. I did many random works in various way. I was quite afraid of COVID-19. As a result, there was a lack of organized works in the life. My brain became slow.

But there was a saying "came late but came correct". I have intended to take many steps to correct each & every unfavourable situation.      

 

Wednesday, July 15, 2020 (confused)

For some days, I may miss something about which I don’t know. There are random thoughts on my mind without a proper direction. I am also confused in some degrees. The reasons behind it are unknown and totally random. For more than 4 months, I am approximately locked in my life. There are no sudden possibility to overcome it. I don’t know the ending point of it. I am totally confused, depressed and frustrated now from inside.       

 

Friday, June 19, 2020 (hair loss)

Few days ago, I saw a movie named Bala. The story is about a person who tries hard to stop hair loss and faces problems due to baldness. The movie gives an appreciable message that love yourself and don’t consider others opinion to you. In life, we face problems and overcome it after a while. Some problems can be fixed and some are unfixable. But unfixable problems have some alternative solutions. Most of the persons don’t consider alternative solutions as real solutions. 

I faced a problem in 2018. Before discussing it, I must mention the origin of the problem. When I was in class 8, I had suddenly recognized that speed of my hair fall increased. Speed continued increasing year after year and I started searching the solution. Sometimes, I used a certain product like shampoo, hair oil to stop hair fall. But it never stopped. Shaving hair declined the hair fall for a certain period of time. But it is not ultimate solution. Though I faced too much hair fall from class 9/10, the growth of my hair may have been much more. 

In 2018, I recognized that there is a small white spot in the middle left side of my head. There was no hair. At first, I was not tensed at all. After a few days later, it started growing and it became very large after 2 months later. Then I started searching the solution and tried to get a solution and found a video that I could trust. I went to a local doctor who told me the same thing. I was ready to take injunctions in my head. Every injunction was taken 28 days from previous one. I took 3 injunctions and the hair started growing after 15/20 days later of 1^st injunction. 1^st injunction was very painful but I could handle it. Approximately 6 months later, the place became very normal. There were enough hairs.

It is not a big thing at all but the story is untold and it was a tough time for me. I tried hard to get a solution rather than to get depressed. Solution exists nearby and we need to have patience to see it. 

  

Saturday, June 13, 2020 (Coincidence)

Coincidence is not very rare in the life. It happens less frequently in the life. There is nothing special for a coincided event. It is just a probability that can occur.

When there is a long series of coincidence. It arises question about the authenticity of the event. Is it a coincidence or planned event. A planned can be assumed as a coincidence if it is presented in such way. But a planned event can not be considered as a coincidence. When there is a complex coincidence, I become very curious to know all ins and outs of the event. Maybe I am just overthinking but It's my habit.         

Wednesday, June 10, 2020 (Embracement and Mistake)

I try my best to avoid embracing situation  most of the time. In fact, it is the most pathetic situation for me. Today, I am embraced for an uncertain situation which is definitely not preferable for me. 

I know i may have done mistake but I can not find the source of problem. The situation is that I can not properly guess the solution either. 

I felt actual pain when situation like it happen in the life. I can digest any bad situation but i can not crop up with embracing situation.                       

Sunday, May 31, 2020 (lockdown has ended)

Finally government does not increase the duration of lockdown and businesses open from today. The public transports especially buses are going to run from tomorrow. But public must follow some "hygiene instructions" imposed by the government. Everything seems normal. Is it true or is it going to be a nightmare?????

I don’t know the exact answer. My estimation indicates me that something worst is going to happen. The number of infected persons is increasing day by day.  

When things like this had just started happening, I ate burgers, Sharwma  and  other foods. Because life is totally uncertain and we don’t know about duration of our life. And it’s not in our hand either.    

Monday, May 25, 2020 (Eid during the period of Lockdown)

It is Eid Ul Fitr-2020. After fasting 30 days, Eid Ul Fitr comes to every Muslim as the biggest festival. Scenario is little different this year as the world is not a safe place at all. The whole world is covered with the cloud of fear. The fear comes from Corona virus. The number of infected persons is increasing day by day which is not a good sign at all. At the end of March, Bangladesh was in last 30^th country and today it stands at 25^th country. At the same time, government plans to withdraw restriction imposed by them. 

From my childhood, Eid Ul Fitr is very special. After all, it is a festival for celebrating with family, friends, relatives. Last year, I did not go anywhere but there was no fear at that time. I have not gone to mosque for offering Eid prayer this year, though the prayers were allowed to offer in the mosques now.

Today, I feel like remaining in a jail. The worst part is that I have the key to unlock the prison but I want to remain in the prison. :) 

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

When someone walks on a crowd less road, the person may feel feared for loneliness. Human beings can not live alone. They need persons and Their cooperation. That’s why they need family as well as society.

Right now, we need social distance for the prevention of spreading COVID-19. But gossiping and cooperating with others become a habit for the most of us. And habit is the second nature. We never want changes in our life, the way we are, behavior pattern  and thinking pattern.     

People have excuses for any situation in Bangladesh. I have been seeing the fact since my childhood. They have an excuse for any unfavourable situation or they blame others for the unsuccessful attempts.

In the crisis of COVID-19, we have excuses and blame each others for the situation. Most of us are problem finder and few persons are solution Oriented.

I don’t have fear for walking on a crowd less road. I know every unsuccessful attempts has its own story. There may be some objects resisting the Success and the objects resisting the success are responsible. But i Avoid blaming persons or objects and try to develop myself. And i recognized that I easily got troubling for many things but I found solution for the problem somehow. Because i want to get solution rather than to ask only question without finding the solution.

Toda,  the roads are heavy crowded which makes me afraid. I don’t know what will happen net. But current scenario is not favorable at all.                           

Friday, May 15, 2020 (Durning the days of Quarantine, part-6)

I know the unlimited supply of any thing destroys the demand of that thing. Therefore, the value of that thing becomes zero. Even though it is necessary for life, we don’t care about it. We need Oxygen to live but we never care about it due to unlimited supply. 

There is unlimited time now  and i don’t know about it’s ending point. I try to use it in a proper way. But maintaining routine is very difficult now. At the same time, i miss those days when i could go to any place as i wanted. I could not move without fear for 2 months. No one wants restricted life. In fact, freedom is the ultimate goal for many persons.  

The sky is big and it is definitely bigger than our expectation. It is a long time now and there is a lot of times needed to end it. Day by day, the situation is becoming more crucial. 

          

Friday, May 08, 2020 (During the period of Lockdown, Part-5)

Before the lockdown, I recognized that the lockdown situation could also be implemented in our country because all the countries around the globe had started locking down at that time. So, I was pretty sure about happening same thing in Bangladesh.

I went to saloon on 17.03.2020 last time and I found there were no ways to avoid transmission of Virus in that place. 

I took decision to buy shaving materials. I never cut my beard myself and always went to saloon to cut it. I started shaving my bread from 2009 in Saloons. Situation things remain same. But changing situation teaches us many things and we must crop up with existing situation. 

Saturday, ‎July ‎24, ‎2010, ‏‎2:54:54 PM, One of the earliest picture.

Similarly, I became bald because there was no scope to cut hair.It was done by my nephew and wife.

Wednesday, May 6, 2020 (days during quarantine, part-04)

Minutes are becoming hours, hours are becoming days and days are becoming months now. I can see that most of us become frustrated or bored due to lockdown. By the way, lockdown is just a title in our country now. Reality is that there are too much cars and crowd in the roads. 

Similarly, the government has taken decision to open every thing step by step and they already allowed germants to continue their operation in a time when the rate of infected persons are raising day by day. At the same time, shopping malls are going to be opened on 10th day. 

If the lockdown continues for a long time, it will definitely collapse our economy. But the question is that "is it right time to open every thing???".

I don't know what the government should do. But it is not right time to do it from my point of view. We should not blame our government either as the citizens of the country are not conscious about the concern. If they follow the instructions prescribed by the government, corona virus can be removed easily. Similarly, whenever government has taken a strict step to succeed the lockdown, people start criticizing the step. People think emotionally and they don't use logic which is the biggest drawback in our country.