Friday, December 14, 2012

laughing by hearing some funny stories. It is possible to show your real face but it is impossible to change your real face. Some people think that they are over smart but they are not able to match up the level of it. When someone feces the reality, he/she may feel that he/she can’t face it. I shouldn’t have believed them but I was not in sense. 

Saturday, December 08, 2012

I am feeling pain in my heat. I don’t know why I can’t express anything.

Life will be easy if everything is expressed by writing, not by telling

No one wants to understand me even my mom. I wish I were a person who can express anything. But it must not be possible. Once I lived my life very well but now my life is imprisoned in a jar. I am none. I am just a shadow which remains behind a person. Sides of my life are two. Firstly I am a person who is very friendly, smart and charming. On the other side, I am a person who is alone and seriously frustrated about everything.

By following a shadow, where I come.

The way in which I am standing is totally unknown,

Forgetting the way of the return, where I come.

The weather is smoky and none is here, where

Getting the light of sun but leaving all the well wishers, where I come.

                                 Walk and walk where I come, now I feel afraid to see back.      

                                                 

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

The people who do not express their feelings are real poor. I don’t know the psychological term of it. When someone starts storing their feelings, he/she also starts storing their pain. I am 21 year old and still alone. And I can realize that it is my life. I have no expectations from others but why do others expect from me? I love darkness because it is very known situation of my life.

Sunday, December 02, 2012

At the end the examinations are over. It feels me relief. Someone said “you have no manner”. Maybe the person is right. I am 100% sure that she is right. I don’t know how to behave in different circumstances. I often feel that I am an alien who is the only one in the earth.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Today is the starting day of midterm exam. The day is full of its speed. I am just recognizing that I am actually not so bad but also too weak to express. Someone said me “you should express your thought in order to decline distress” he did not know that I was actually distress.

Friday, November 09, 2012

Realization may be hard to define, but easy to feel. Someone asked me why I was there. Now I know the answer. Basically I am a freedom fighter. I mean I did not fight for country but I fought for me. So I am logically a freedom fighter. I need an independent life. Someone who is in position may feel that he/she is free. But my definition of freedom may be unique in my angle and many people feel that I am totally mental patient. Yah! They are completely right. Freedom means doing something what you actually want to do. From my childhood, I just want to go away from all. I mean I just run away from all. Maybe I am selfish; maybe I am worst than your expectation. But it does not have any basic logic.