I want to go back towards my previous problem and I don't mind to rethink about the previous life.
Though it is the last option, it is not considered the worst possible choice for me. I don't have any desire to go back at all. However, a tiny greedy part exists inside my heart which indicates me about leaving all the things and going back. Beyond the existence of that devil inside me, there are some logics behind my last option as well.
Firstly, I did not leave any huge opportunity in Bangladesh like others. For-example: Some of my classmates left high income jobs or government jobs due to pursue opportunities in the UK. I had healthy income as a freelancer but I have confidence to regain my position within few months even to gain a better position than the previous one. Because I did not resign from any position which was achieved after spending several years.
Secondly, I did not leave my country only to have a better life but my determination to the act stated due to anger for some specific people. I have observed a particular aspect about myself that my angernes is not parmanent. My mother has been waiting for me since February. Someday fire of my anger will die down and my mood may change.
Finally, I can redefine myself with the experience that I achieve from the UK. Whenever I completed a struggling period, I redefined me and made myself a better human. Right now, It is my surviving period where I am learning a lot of new things. If I go back to Bangladesh, I will definitely extend my capacity.
If It becomes true, the scario will be normal for me as well. Because I regard the journey as a form of vacation for me. Thus, going back will be a scenario like coming back to home after having a long vacaion. It will not be a huge loss for me but a life time experience.
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