Tuesday, July 30, 2024

I have not been feeling well for the past few days due to the ongoing dire situation in the country. Additionally, it is the death anniversary of my father. Although our relationship was not very close, we respected each other in our own ways. I deeply miss him now, but it is impossible to have him with me.

Monday, 29 July, 2024 (Restlessness inside me)

I don't know how to explain anything or describe the situation. Everything is messed up, and I feel ashamed that I have seen it. There are many things inside me, but I have been feeling restless for a few days. I feel like I want to cry so loudly that the pain of all the untold words can be removed from me. Feeling like a paralyzed person is no joke at all.

Monday, July 15, 2024 (The Joy of Overcoming Obstacles)

Overcoming barriers to face the next one has become a part of my life nowadays. I try to solve a problem and don’t have any opportunity to celebrate after successfully completing the work, as another issue always arises to tackle. This cycle repeats for me, which is quite an enjoyable activity since I love finding solutions to difficulties. Life without struggles is quite boring for me. Many people find such situations unpleasant, but I consider them a delightful period. I believe that if I finish all my tasks, I would have nothing left to live for. Restlessness always reminds me that I am still alive.

 

 

Saturday, July 6, 2024 (Why do people not give up their ego?)

Before starting the main topic, I was an arrogant and extremist person before 2016. At a certain time of my life, I recognized about my wrong way of thinking. I thought I was someone who was special. My decisions were right at any time. But I was misguided and the environment & people surrounding me influenced me to make those attitude. I have been changing myself for more than 8 years now. Though some people know about their fault, they never try to correct themself, and they start showing logic in order to transferring the incorrect thing into a wealthy thing. Certain individuals around me are quite radical and does not try to accept the real things at all. It is deeply distressing to recognize that they are unlikely to ever change, and their persistent aggressiveness could pose significant dangers for them in the future.

Friday, July 05, 2024 (A comeback)

Finally, I got an expected result for my IELTS band. It was my second attempt for which I sat on examination on 22.06.24. In my first try, I got band 6 with all having 6 or more. I needed 6.5 for applying. This time my expectation was below 6 as I did not do my best at all in case of reading and writing and expected band 5 and 5.5 respectively. However, I got band 6 in both of them. For the listening part, I was confident that it would be more than band 7 and it is actually 7.5. Similarly, I thought speaking would be at least 6 which is little higher (6.5) than this. Hence, it was quiet satisfactory result for me. After a long period of time, I have experienced the pressure of examination and excitement of seeing results.