Friday, March 31, 2017

I feel like a lunatic person for few months. I don’t have any focus on my job, Study, Games and life right now. I am depressed in the same time. Depression is not for being an under performer for all sectors but I have lost the vision of life. I don’t know what I am doing and why I am doing those. Life is like a movie without any script. The definition of happiness is also unknown to me now.

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

I never belong to any group of unity intentionally. Maybe I am not comfortable in a Group or I have a fear to be dominated by the others within a group. I don’t recognize the actual reason until now. Groups are not bad at all and a group allows its member to take more appropriate Decision because different minds generate a unique combination of knowledge. I like to walk alone and 

Being a person without any group identifies the actual of that person.

I don’t like groups for following reasons:

Unethical Practice: Most of the groups are made for a good reason but ultimately members use it for unethical demands.

Dominance Tendency: I am always dominated by others if I have a connection with a group.

Thursday, March 16, 2017

A dream that have been planning for more than a month may give to an unbearable plan. When the dream has been destroyed in font of you, only you can realize the actual situation. Maybe it's a simple thing to others and it's just a simple rejection. Life looks like a worthless thing. Brain doesn't work and only want to stop thinking. Surrounding people are nearby you but it feels alone in a crowded street. I could remember until 6 AM when I cried last time. Right now I know this. 

A depressed period (Feb-11 to Feb-20)

Those days were intolerable because every thing was limited. Limited thing may open further opportunities but this theory is not applicable in my case. I tried to utilize every moment though time was short. I tried to utilize every moment but I realized that it was not good enough for a hang mind. And disappointment and depression arrived again after a while. :(

Friday, 10 February 2017

Life seems worthless whenever main work doesn't really work. Pain is not defined numerically but it has just a sense of feeling worst. Reason behind this stage for someone ignorance is more painful. Someone who influence you most, who is the reason behind everything arranged may be your biggest weakness ever. Because you neither terminate the person nor ignore the person. It's just like a slow poison that takes time but destroy everything. 

Tuesday, February 07, 2017

Life is changing every moment. In One Moment, Life is like Hell and It is like Heaven in an another moment. Sometimes we need just a paper to everything around us, a song to add a flavor with ongoing things and an Imagination to see everything in our way. Whenever everything is not okay in the life, Everything seems dull. Similarly, Whenever Everything is okay in the life, that dull life also seems colorful. Tension is a vital part of life that will exist forever. But it must be Controlled by confidence and I have no confidence in myself. But still there are ways to reduce tension.

Friday, February 03, 2017

I forgot many things that are not habitual. When Life does not go according to plans, everything is quit nebulous. That nebulous life leads a man to forget everything.

It does not mean that it will be like this forever. I have been busy during the whole week. Time seems limited now. A day consists of 24 hours but it should be a few hours more. I try hard to accomplish everything that I have started. Obstacles are many in the way but opportunities are limited. Problems are a lot but solutions are few.  

I remain tensed before accomplishing a task and after accomplishing it, everything seems excellent.

Sunday, January 22, 2017

Being alone is not a terrible thing for me. I love to be alone. It doesn't make me realize that it's my weakness. In fact, It is my one of the best strengths. 

When someone comes to me in search of help, I always try to solve his problem without seeing the relationship between us. Helping others is pretty a peaceful thing for me. When I help someone, I get myself satisfaction. As a human, it is our prime duty to help each other. I never have fear to be dominated by the help seekers.

If you donate something, you will not hope something in return of your donation. If you donate something in order to getting something, it's not donation but a deal.

Whenever I am a help seeker, the whole world denies helping me. Maybe I don't know how to convince people for getting a favor. The greatest helper also closes their door for me. If I need a tiny help, people consider it as a huge one. And they forget to shout out it.

Situation like this make me feel alone. And that feel of alone is my actual weakness. A weakness that makes me feel that I am alone in a crowded place. There are many persons but all is unknown to me. I am quite helpless now. :-/