Sunday, December 8, 2024 (Why I hate my school life)

I neither liked nor remember my school life fondly, as I consider it the darkest period of my life due to numerous unpleasant incidents. I am aware that most people cherish their school days and often reflect on many happy moments. However, for me, there were only a few pleasant memories overshadowed by overwhelmingly negative experiences.

 

Aggressive Teachers and Punishments

The teachers were very aggressive and often resorted to physical punishment for incomplete homework. Similarly, they would beat students for talking in class during lessons. A few teachers even mistreated students without any apparent reason, which created a hostile and intimidating environment.

 

Lack of Proper Teaching

Secondly, the teachers focused more on assigning and checking homework than on actual teaching. If homework was not completed, students were punished. They failed to provide proper instruction, and I often had many questions but was too afraid to ask. There was a time when I genuinely wanted to learn, but the teachers seemed uninterested in imparting knowledge. As a result, staying at home and studying independently felt like a better option for me.

 

The Impact of Poor Exam Evaluation Practices

Thirdly, I noticed that the teachers did not evaluate exam papers properly. Despite putting in my best effort, I often received low marks due to improper grading. Conversely, there were times when my performance was poor, yet I received better marks because of their lack of attention to detail. This inconsistency discouraged me and made me lose hope that hard work would lead to better grades. Since I was not a top-performing student, my efforts were often overlooked.

 

Isolation and Lack of Friendship

Fourthly, I did not have any close friends after completing primary school. There was no mutual bond with my peers, and my introverted nature made forming friendships even more difficult. My introversion was particularly extreme during my school years, which added to my sense of isolation.

 

Irregular Attendance and Missed Memories

Fifthly, I rarely attended classes regularly because I saw little value in doing so, especially after primary school. Consequently, I missed many events and have very few memories of those years.

 

Absence of Achievements

Lastly, I did not achieve anything noteworthy during my school life. While many students received prizes and accolades, I have no such memories to cherish.

 

In contrast, the last two years of my school life were not as bad. I was determined to pass my SSC examination and became very focused in classes 9 and 10. Although I was very weak in English, I worked hard to improve through consistent effort.

Overall, there was nothing significant or positive about my school life due to all these challenges. It remains a period I would rather forget.

Tuesday, December 3, 2024 (December: A Time for Hope and Change)

A sense of tension within me is rising day by day. At the moment, I cannot see ahead clearly as everything around me feels nebulous. I have started many things for the first time, but I need to develop a skill because I learn slowly. Finding solutions and discovering techniques to overcome these challenges is my hope. December has often been a month of limited achievements in my past, but I am hopeful that this year might be different.

Wedness day, November 11, 2024 (After a long busy period)

I have been busy for an extended period, which caused me to neglect my blog. One of my main challenges is that I sometimes lose track of my activities. However, once I resolve the underlying issues, I resume them as usual. Recently, I encountered several disruptions, including health concerns, a vacation, and some unexpected events.

Notably, I visited Cox's Bazar for the third time, and it was an immensely enjoyable trip. My first visit was with relatives and family members, which was a memorable experience. Unfortunately, toward the end of the previous month, I fell ill, which resulted in my complete absence from blogging.

Thursday, September 5, 2024 (One month of Bangladesh 2.0)

So, it's like the first month of Bangladesh's independence all over again. Some may say the country gained independence in 1971, but for the past decade, freedom of speech has been entirely absent from our society. If I voiced concerns about social, economic, or other issues, those in power would take action against me. Until now, I have not been able to cast my vote according to my own conscience.

People always knew that this regime would eventually fall, but they were too afraid to speak up. However, the government's excessive threats caused people to lose their fear of death, and that became the very reason for its downfall.

Friday, August 23, 2024 (Natural Disasters)

A large section of people are affected by flood now especially in the district of Comilla and near by districts. People have been suffering a lot due to raising water level. 

Monday, August 05, 2024 (An Unthinkable Victory: The End of a Dictator's Reign)

It is an unbelievable day for the nation as Sheikh Hasina, the dictator who controlled the media, law enforcement agencies, and legal system, has just fled from Bangladesh. As a result, people have revived democracy and are celebrating the victory. It is a hard slap to the face of an arrogant fascist ruler.

This morning, I was very sad to find out that they had turned off the internet. I was worried about the students, as the police had killed many during the last internet shutdown. I was deeply disappointed, but the whole nation became joyful upon hearing that she had fled the country.

I went to TSC and Shahid Minar to join the celebrations, and I saw that everyone on the streets was very happy and openly raising their voices, something that had been missing from our country. I am 30 years old and have never been able to vote with my own consent. I just hope for a future where I can raise my voice without fear.

 

 

Sunday, August 05, 2024 (A sleepless night for the nation)

It is 5 AM, and the entire nation is awake with anticipation, as the road march to Dhaka (name of the movement) is set to take place tomorrow. There is a widespread hope for a peaceful victory, as no one desires any bloodshed. In recent days, we have witnessed numerous distressing events, including today, when over 100 people, including students, police officers, and civilians, lost their lives. Everyone is hoping for a positive resolution to this situation.

Tuesday, July 30, 2024

I have not been feeling well for the past few days due to the ongoing dire situation in the country. Additionally, it is the death anniversary of my father. Although our relationship was not very close, we respected each other in our own ways. I deeply miss him now, but it is impossible to have him with me.

Monday, 29 July, 2024 (Restlessness inside me)

I don't know how to explain anything or describe the situation. Everything is messed up, and I feel ashamed that I have seen it. There are many things inside me, but I have been feeling restless for a few days. I feel like I want to cry so loudly that the pain of all the untold words can be removed from me. Feeling like a paralyzed person is no joke at all.

Monday, July 15, 2024 (The Joy of Overcoming Obstacles)

Overcoming barriers to face the next one has become a part of my life nowadays. I try to solve a problem and don’t have any opportunity to celebrate after successfully completing the work, as another issue always arises to tackle. This cycle repeats for me, which is quite an enjoyable activity since I love finding solutions to difficulties. Life without struggles is quite boring for me. Many people find such situations unpleasant, but I consider them a delightful period. I believe that if I finish all my tasks, I would have nothing left to live for. Restlessness always reminds me that I am still alive.

 

 

Saturday, July 6, 2024 (Why do people not give up their ego?)

Before starting the main topic, I was an arrogant and extremist person before 2016. At a certain time of my life, I recognized about my wrong way of thinking. I thought I was someone who was special. My decisions were right at any time. But I was misguided and the environment & people surrounding me influenced me to make those attitude. I have been changing myself for more than 8 years now. Though some people know about their fault, they never try to correct themself, and they start showing logic in order to transferring the incorrect thing into a wealthy thing. Certain individuals around me are quite radical and does not try to accept the real things at all. It is deeply distressing to recognize that they are unlikely to ever change, and their persistent aggressiveness could pose significant dangers for them in the future.

Friday, July 05, 2024 (A comeback)

Finally, I got an expected result for my IELTS band. It was my second attempt for which I sat on examination on 22.06.24. In my first try, I got band 6 with all having 6 or more. I needed 6.5 for applying. This time my expectation was below 6 as I did not do my best at all in case of reading and writing and expected band 5 and 5.5 respectively. However, I got band 6 in both of them. For the listening part, I was confident that it would be more than band 7 and it is actually 7.5. Similarly, I thought speaking would be at least 6 which is little higher (6.5) than this. Hence, it was quiet satisfactory result for me. After a long period of time, I have experienced the pressure of examination and excitement of seeing results.