Saturday, August 08, 2020 (loosing focus)

 It is quite natural to loose focus. I often loose focus on the main target but I recognize it and fix it up quickly. After a long period of time, I feel that I am loosing my focus on almost everything. The reason behind it is obviously routine less life. One of the influencing things is the large scale of time available during the period of lockdown. 

I was not organized. At the same time, there were no compulsory duties like study. I did many random works in various way. I was quite afraid of COVID-19. As a result, there was a lack of organized works in the life. My brain became slow.

But there was a saying "came late but came correct". I have intended to take many steps to correct each & every unfavourable situation.      

 

Wednesday, July 15, 2020 (confused)

For some days, I may miss something about which I don’t know. There are random thoughts on my mind without a proper direction. I am also confused in some degrees. The reasons behind it are unknown and totally random. For more than 4 months, I am approximately locked in my life. There are no sudden possibility to overcome it. I don’t know the ending point of it. I am totally confused, depressed and frustrated now from inside.       

 

Saturday, April 25, 2020 (Staring the month of Ramadan during the period of quarantine)

So, it's the first day of Ramada-2020 but everything is not usual like other years. Every year, the day starts like a festival but the scenario is totally different year this. There is no iftar shop this year. Infact, there is also restriction on "Tarabi" Prayer. 

Many initiatives are taken but it is not implemented properly. People still go outside with or without needs. We don't properly understand the concept of quarantine. 

Today, I have visited my work station and it is approximately empty. Only 10/12 persons are there. 

Though I am fasting, the feeling of fasting is not same as previous years. Life is like a jail now. But the scenario will change one day which every will be normal. 

Saturday, September 28, 2019 (Competition)

The biggest enemy of everyone’s life is same. One may identify various persons and various things as his/her enemies. But it is not necessary to see everything from our eyes. Sometime, we may feel or realize something which we can’t see from our eyes. Similarly it is also not important to see every enemy from your eyes. Some enemies don’t maybe invisible. The main villain of your life completely hides from us. The villain remains closer but we never recognize it because we believe on what we can see in most of the time. 

Competition is the main villain of a human life. Human believes that he/she is superior to others. From this concept, we think that life is a race and life is a competition.  

Almost all the conflicts are made because of all competitions. In our society, everyone is engaged in competition with others. Students study to get higher marks than others; businessman does business to earn more than others and more on. 

Reality is that we forget to live and are engaged in competition without thinking too much. If we make a research, we can easily recognize that we live for competition. I don’t know about others but life does not mean competition for me at last. 

Yes!!! Sometime, I make my mind to be competitive but I like to help my opposite more than to make competition. 

Yes!!! Scope is limited everywhere and we need to make competition to get the desirable thing. But winning in a competition is not the ultimate goal. 

I know different persons having different meaning of life. Most of them don’t know what life is or what happiness is. Asking those questions may be silly but most of us don’t answer it for sure. The meaning of life is very deep. People don’t have time to think deep or they don’t want to think deep or they do not want to think. 

Overall, leaving competitive attitude declines conflict and depression for sure. Most importantly, we must recognize our finishing line before starting a race.

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Sometime, pain is needed for realizing the situation. But only an actionable realization can make the situation better. Otherwise, pain becomes habit and fate. Frustration and depression are not bad things but those are assets. Realizing depression and frustration without reasons make those valueless. Those must be stored in order to using on right time.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Life goes with it's stable speed but everything is uncleared for me. I have been searching what I actually want for years. Leading life without mission and vision is quite nebulous. I know my mission and vision but I am on a wrong path. The main problem is that luck is not stable like speed of time. My mind doesn't focus on a specific thing for a long time as well.