Wednesday, December 30, 2020 (Too much loudness)

Becoming angry is a common intense emotional state found in all living beings. Expressing it is not a big deal at all. We must understand to whom it is expressed. 

It is almost impossible for me to digest anyone's anger without a reason. I can understand the situation when I have done a mistake. I don't have any issue to hear any rough thing due to my mistakes. Digesting rough behavior without my fault is the worst scenario for me. I simply avoid those whenever anyone tries to show his anger with me without any logic. 

Now it is a scenario like a little object in a solar system achieving escape velocity due to the gravity of a gigantic object. 

Thursday, December 24, 2020 (having no time for thinking)

Life catches up speed again. There are little scopes to think about everything. Once planning and thinking were my favorite activities. Still I try hard to focus on my thinking pattern. 

There were several events happened in few days like tour, anniversary and more on. The tour was amazing by the way. 

Sometimes, it is better to become a devil rather than to remain a gentleman. Because no one expects better thing from a savage. Almost all expect better thing from a gentleman. I never want anyone who expects very little from me. Expectation makes me weaker and no expectation is my biggest strength. 

Tuesday, December 8, 2020 (society)

Social outlook can not be changed in one day. It takes time to change and we live in a conservative society where out of box thinking is rejected most of the time. Customs & traditions have been created and it is observed by generation after generation. 

Becoming rebel is not an ideal thought at all. 

Tuesday, November 24, 2020 (changing PC after 11 years)

After a long period of time, I have started writing the blog again. 

Last day (23.11.2020), I bought my new PC. After 11 years, I changed my PC and it was really needed. I hope that it will least longer than the previous one. ;) 

Monday, November 9, 2020 (no time)

 It seems that there is no time for many things. Many hobbies and habits became history. Sometimes, it is almost impossible to leave a habit. But it is "almost impossible", not "impossible". Things change and we should crop up with existing situation. Maybe the present is dark, tomorrow seems nebulous but the day after tomorrow will bring light of joys. 

Sunday, October 4, 2020

Everyone is a hero in his or her life and every life is a story of movie. There are some certain villains and supporting casts around us. There are many turns and twists that make it more uncertain. But uncertainty is the best way to explore the new. Every failure is the less important one and every success is just a way to achieve ultimate goal. 

As the story progresses, we start loosing ourselves. We are just stuck between the heart and the world. It looks like a war. The world wins most of the time. Because it is our fault to avoid risk and play safe. 

We actually forget ourselves and make ourselves in such way that the society wants. As a result, we are no more hero and act like someone else. When we loose our identity, the life starts feeling a burden. 

Thursday, September 24, 2020 (Depression, over expectation, Deserving - Planning and finding out alternatives)

The period of depression comes in the life now and then. It doesn't matter how long it will last. Feeling depressed is not a sin and it is very common feeling. 

There are many reasons behind depression. One of the most influencing fact is over-expectation. Over expectation forces us to expect more than our capabilities. It is not a sin either to expect more than one's capabilities. All the living creatures expect more. Problem doesn't arise from over expectation. It arises when we assume the over expectation as our deserving thing without much effort. Mixing over-expectation with deserving thing is the main problem in case of depression. 

What do I deserve actually??? 

Before answering the question, I have to think which things I got which I actually didn't deserve. The list is not short. 

Over expectation is not a problem if we plan, work and try our best to achieve it. But people only think about it without much efforts. It is not our prime duty to think about deserving. Only thinking about deserving thing without much efforts is not ideal at all. There are many things in life expect thinking about it. 

At the same time, we should not compare our life with others. We don't know about back ground history of the targeted person. Other's success should be our inspiration rather than our depression. 

For me, I love to be depressed by various factors. Being depressed is not my weakness. I consider it as my biggest strength. Whenever I become depressed, I start planning and implementing it. And I know my abilities and my deserving things. But I always expect one step lower than my deserving thing. :) 

Sunday, September 14, 2020 (Believing in half picture)

It is not surprising fact that most of people believe half true or shown true. When you judge a picture by seeing it's half part & assume it as full picture, you can be misguided easily. Similarly they don't have enough time to research facts and factors to create own judgement. 

A sector of people shows us half picture and emphasizes to believe on it. It is not an odd act in our society. Almost everyone shows us half picture of a full scenario. Because it increases their influencing power. It doesn't matter that they misguide many people. 

To solve it, we need to use our brain. At first, we must hear all the details, then search new sources of getting information, analyzing facts and trying to create your own judgement. Asking question is not an act of sin. Whenever there is a question, there must be a solution. Everything can be proven if you have ability to find it. 

When asking question is considered as a sinful act, then yes, I am a sinner. 

Friday, September 4, 2020 (No companion)

 I don't need any companion at all. I don't mind when there is no one with me. If someone is not with me and makes companion with the persons against me. I don't mind either in this situation. 

As it is human behavior, he/she has rights to select his/her side. It is quite natural that human selects wrong side most of the time. Due to benefits & personal relationship, people don't think too much about which side is right & which side is wrong. 

Anything goes in their favor is right for them and anything goes against them is wrong for them. I said the same thing before. 

I never try to make relationship for getting favor and making relationship is not a deal for me. 

I have been thinking about my life for last one week. No one is with me and no one will help me unless they get benefitted by me. There is no one who stands for me even though I was not wrong or my points were logical. 

The world is a game of taking benefits and there is a few persons who don't care about it. 

Wednesday, August 26, 2020 (life continues)

It doesn't matter how bad scenario someone is facing. The life continues and goes on. Sometimes, it is quite impossible to know about your situation by your nearby people. Life is like a house of cards where everything is quite uncertain. No one knows what uncertain situation will arrive in upcoming future. We can plan for future with strong prediction and plan may be supported by alternatives. But future is still uncertain. 

Whatever problems I am facing are completely my matter. I don't want to share it as I don't want to keep it myself. Once I didn't like to getting pain. Then getting pain became a habit and now it becomes an addiction. 

Still I believe and strengthen my mind to overcome each and every situation. After a long period of time, my heart is actually broken by some incidents. It doesn't matter because the life continues. 😇😇😇

Saturday, August 08, 2020 (loosing focus)

 It is quite natural to loose focus. I often loose focus on the main target but I recognize it and fix it up quickly. After a long period of time, I feel that I am loosing my focus on almost everything. The reason behind it is obviously routine less life. One of the influencing things is the large scale of time available during the period of lockdown. 

I was not organized. At the same time, there were no compulsory duties like study. I did many random works in various way. I was quite afraid of COVID-19. As a result, there was a lack of organized works in the life. My brain became slow.

But there was a saying "came late but came correct". I have intended to take many steps to correct each & every unfavourable situation.      

 

Wednesday, July 15, 2020 (confused)

For some days, I may miss something about which I don’t know. There are random thoughts on my mind without a proper direction. I am also confused in some degrees. The reasons behind it are unknown and totally random. For more than 4 months, I am approximately locked in my life. There are no sudden possibility to overcome it. I don’t know the ending point of it. I am totally confused, depressed and frustrated now from inside.