Saturday, December 16, 2017

It's not hard to identify a person remaining in a cage. But a person remaining in a hidden cage is hard to identify. The cage does not have any physical outlook but it exists like air.

Air that you can't see is not hidden from the world. This is an open secret to everyone. Some people grow up only to go inside this hidden prison. Someone's ultimate target is to remain in that place. Only prisoner knows how he feels within that prison. Some are happy and some are confused to lead a subservient life. 

I feel that I am within a cage for some months. Cage that only I can feel. 

Saturday, December 9, 2017 (A rainy Day in December)

It's a rainy day which is exceptional event in December. I don't remember when I saw a rainy day in December last time. Maybe it is the first time in my life time as much as I know. Everything is quite. There is a flow of cold air as well as cold drops of rain which make it more watchable. People are trying their best to reach their own destination.

Sunday, November 19, 2017

There are amply ways in life. But alternatives are not necessary sometimes. The burning question is which one is the best and to be selected. The best one is defeated by the safe one because it is human nature to avoid risk and to remain in the safe side. Though the best one is more lucrative, we choose the safe one most of the time.

In my case, I know about all available alternatives, its ins and outs and ways to achieve those. The main obstacle is that determined things do not go according to my plans. Execution is not the problem because I try my best to execute a plan. If I don't get the platform to execute the determined thing, I don't have any thing to execute. Luck is a matter in my case though we consider bad luck as an excuse for unsuccessful attempts. 

A favorable phenomenon is that life gives me second chance again and again. And I grab second chances to overcome the previous situation.

Thursday, November 09, 2017

There is some persons who think that the simple math of life is workable for a long time with a constant speed. But reality is something beyond their ideas. Thinking about a plan does not mean that it will go according to plans.

Everyone has needs, wants and demands. To fulfill those needs, wants and demands is their rights. Whenever those needs, wants and demands conflict with others needs, wants and demands, it is not desirable to anyone. But it is seen that superiors take advantage in this case.

Friday, November 3, 2017

There are many storms that a life faces. Somtimes, there is little light and amply darkness. Existing light is disappearing slow and steady. But life still goes with it's own way. Thousands of problems, struggles and obsticles exits in life but there is a life. 

For some months, life is hanged in one position. Everything goes on and I have been staying at same place. Destination is not in my side and expected things are not set on my mind now. Many things that I want to share, to express but I don't get word or the way to start. I am not scared  by the dry period. It encourages me to overcome the situation. But a shadow that remained with me for years has been lost forever. That's the main reason behind all. 

Monday, October 9, 2017

Known things seems different because of various angles. This variation is simple fact but sometimes it is hard to accept it.
By the way, Unmesh has performed outstanding in medical admission which makes me proud to be a part of it. There are 7 persons out of top 8. All my work during admission time has got a meaning now. 😁😁😁

Thursday, 22 September, 2017

Everything looks dark nowadays. I have tried to stabilize complex situations but those go more and more complex. To break this complexity and to make everything simple is the prime task for me now. I assume that almost all elements are against me. I don't understand whether negative forces are going toward me or I am going toward negative forces. Every well-know path seems too many secrets. The sun remains somewhere behind clouds and I am not able to find it out.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

There are many things in life that are invisible. But those have an existence. Though our eyes are not able to see those physically, our inner eyes may see it. The Concept of “Devil” is related to this thought. Everyone knows about it but no one see it actually. 

If someone focuses it deeply, she/he will realize that original devil exists inside us. One has both negative and positive side. I never think of evil side of someone because I see the world differently. However the reality is far different from my concept. 

If I see someone’s evil side, I don’t get hyper and ignore the fact. The person may feel that I don’t understand the conspiracy but it is my decision to ignore it to minimize my evil side. Ignoring these facts don’t means that I am not capable of completing them. 

The world is never like the way that I consider it to be. I have recognized now and then that human behavior is the most complicated things. I don’t understand various people. Someone once said to me “you don’t understand the world. It is not like the way you think”. His saying was reasonably right. I am still a child who lives in dreams that break more frequently with having new experiences.

The hope is that I trust many persons who don’t have evil sides.

Friday, June 30, 2017

Suddenly I feel sick but no one is here to hear it as usual. Whenever I am in a pain, no one is with me. :(

Sunday, June 25, 2017

I got an Eight day long holiday for Eid. I got such long holiday after 10 months. Last time it was Eid-Ul-Adha and now it is Eid-Ul-Fitr. Value of time is highly realized by me because crisis makes a man realize many important things. And in my case, the crisis is time which I never realized until August 2016. One weakness of good moments is that those are running out faster. It is not in our hands to catch 8 days forever but it is in our hands to make every moment of those days remarkable with joys. Though shortage of time creates limitation, limitation is needed to understand the circumstances. 

Monday, June 19, 2017

Now-a-days, I am engaged to many things and some habits and hobbies become a part of my past life. New hobbies are not coming properly after a regular interval and I don’t have any opportunity to continue existing hobbies to carry on. 

 

 

Facebook: Facebook was a part and parcel of my life. I used to use it more than 10 hours per day until 2016. I started Face-booking in 2010 and now-a-days, I use it often but I log in after an interval of 2 days sometimes. Now, using FB is remaining just less than 10% compared to 2015.

Games: I am fond of playing games. Strategic games are my favorite in which I have something to plan and analyze. I used to play games more than 5 hours daily until 2016. Clash of Clans is my favorite and I also like and played games including Royal Clash, Hay Day, Perfect Kick, 8 Balls and more on. Those games are for a continuous playing and similarly I explored some new games in the same time with my Android Device. Now I play games occasionally and only selective games (Only Clash of Clans and Royal Clash) are played by me. Though it is impossible sometimes to continue, I still try to play. 

 


Watching movies: I used to watch every big movie just after being released. This year I have watched only 2 movies that are released in 2017. One is Raees because of SRK factor and second is Bahubali 2 because of curiosity started from 1^st part. Approximately more than 90% is down from any year. 

Reviewing movies and Reading news about Box office: I like to review movies. For this I had a blog to review movies. When I don’t watch movies in a regular basis, it is almost impossible for me to review. I still read news about box office and movies but I spend little time for this now. 

 

Playing Chess: Playing chess was a likable activity but this is no longer a hobby now.  In fact, playing 4 or 5 rounds were normal once.

 





Other Social Apps: I don’t have enough time to connect with Imo, What’s App, Viber and others regularly. 

 




Blogging: I started blogging since 2010 and I continue it until now. Though the range of writing is narrow now, I try to keep going on.

There are some other habits and hobbies that are not observed now including watching TV programs, watching matches, hearing songs etc. Life is quiet busy after starting my post graduation program. Mind is not fresh but it is hanging all the days. Mind doesn’t perfectly combine between Choice and Decision.

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Emotion is commonly found with everyone. Person without any emotion is like an animal. Everyone has emotions for some particular things. Someone is very emotional and someone has little emotions for a specific thing. But everyone has emotions overall.

Emotion within me is highly found. I always try to avoid new relation. New relation is a new burden for me and I am not able to maintain relationship. It is a burden because I am totally emotional in this case and maintaining relationship is not possible for me because I don’t have techniques to maintain it.

Ending a level is an end forever to me. Ending don’t depress me whenever I see an event to end. In fact, ending inspires me to taste something different in near future and the starting of a new journey will be thrilling.

Wednesday, June 07, 2017

Often I try to change my negative assumption about few people but their acts make me realize that my assumption about them was not wrong. People don’t try to change their selves but they just try to hide their real face from the world. It’s not an exceptional fact that I have discovered right now. Experiencing life allows me to think everything in different angles. 

Skipping unfavorable events is better than showing angriness on those. Skipping doesn’t have any serious impact but it provides mental satisfaction.