I was quite perturbed last day. There
was nothing special on the day. Things were same and things are still same. Only
one thing never comes back. The biggest life line was out of reach.
I know whatever you imposed on me
and I considered it as good. It was actually good for me. I also know whatever
you imposed on me and I considered it as bad. It was also good for me but only I
could not see it at that time. In both cases, there was a win and win situation
for me.
Reality is that men die but his
memories never die. His activities, behavior, philosophies, saying,
suggestions, and more on are reflected on the mind of closed persons. Especially
when there is no hope to communicate with him again, it really gives pain. A pain
that does not have a look but it burn slowly and steadily from inside.
People who can carry loudly in an
adverse event are very lucky. They can release their pains immediately by
carrying loudly. I am the wretched person who does not have this quality. And I
carry pain for a long period of time. But I like it as I still feel the same
way.
I never share my philosophies
with you. It is too late to say anything. Still I believe that you are with me
like a shadow and I can feel you often. There are many things to say, share,
express and more on.