Wednesday, December 11, 2019

Life is very complicated in my case but every is okay. One of the two scenarios may be  here. Firstly, everything is actually okay but I am just overthinking every single fact. Secondly, everything seems to be okay but somethings are seriously worst in the life.

I think too much negative for myself as I expect less for myself. Expecting less is not my weakness but it is my one of the best quality. Because it gives me satisfaction with every small achievement. Failure is also a reason for me to celebrate due to learning from it.

I feel everything impossible when I see back. Because a single distraction may have changed my present greatly. I see everything nebulous when I see forward. I never see a clear image about my future because known fact never happens in the life. There are too much uncertainties for the certain events.

At the end of the day, uncertainty seems better and it surprises me. I always prefer uncertainty and surprises from life. 

Friday, December 13, 2019 (intership defense of MBA)

I have completed all the formal and informal exams of my MBA course. Today I have attended Defense for thesis paper and the journey has ended with this event. As I mentioned in my previous blog that the duration was like the duration of my BBA. 

But the journey was not easy to carry on. There were too much difficulties and struggles. In fact, those struggles made me stronger. Many times, I felt that things were worst. But I was happy to know sun hiding behind the cloud. Someday, the sun would be visible again. 

But I didn't know when I could not tell about struggles and difficulty to my father. There were many things to express but no words are told. I know I am introvert but I should have told those. With every single passing day, I realize that I should have told him. 

By the way, it's just another step in my study life. I know life is a journey and it is definitely not the end of the study life. 

Thursday, September 05, 2019

Some incidents have forced me to think more deeply about human behavior. I don’t try to show my aggressiveness for an unfavorable situation. I think and make a conclusion immediately. Any step that has taken by me is quite invisible and non-violence. But it is important to speak against it in a formal way.  

Everything goes according to its velocity. Problem will arise when that velocity is crashed with another object’s velocity. In the space, every object orbits the bigger one. When one’s orbiting area is disturbed with another object. There will be a crash for sure. When it happen, both velocity and orbiting area change. Of course, bigger one between those will dominate the area. 

Similarly we have some goals and those are crashed with another one’s. At that stage, it is not impossible to satisfy both persons. People always try to dominate each other everywhere. It is one of the most visible characteristics of human being. Not only human being but also all living being try to dominate others. Almost every employee wants to dominate in an office; both try to dominate in between a couple. Domination indicates that you are superior to others. To show power and impotency, people try to dominate each other.

I don’t have any issue about someone’s dominating behavior. If he is happy to dominate others, it is good for him. But I have issues about their unethical means of creating domination. 

It is not possible to remove unethical means of creating domination because most of the people ultimate goal is to dominate others. We need money or people’s support. But why do we need power?

One needs money to show the financial power for dominating others. Similar reason exists for people’s support also.  

Every nation, every community, every person want power and that trend will exist until we exist. So, the game of dominating will never end and it is the most favorite game of all living being forever.

Wednesday, July 31, 2019 (Missing)

I was quite perturbed last day. There was nothing special on the day. Things were same and things are still same. Only one thing never comes back. The biggest life line was out of reach. 

I know whatever you imposed on me and I considered it as good. It was actually good for me. I also know whatever you imposed on me and I considered it as bad. It was also good for me but only I could not see it at that time. In both cases, there was a win and win situation for me. 

Reality is that men die but his memories never die. His activities, behavior, philosophies, saying, suggestions, and more on are reflected on the mind of closed persons. Especially when there is no hope to communicate with him again, it really gives pain. A pain that does not have a look but it burn slowly and steadily from inside. 

People who can carry loudly in an adverse event are very lucky. They can release their pains immediately by carrying loudly. I am the wretched person who does not have this quality. And I carry pain for a long period of time. But I like it as I still feel the same way. 

I never share my philosophies with you. It is too late to say anything. Still I believe that you are with me like a shadow and I can feel you often. There are many things to say, share, express and more on.

Saturday, July 21, 2019 (Probably Last Class Presentatiion of MBA life)

It's probably the last class-presentation of my MBA life. There were several presentations in which participated during last 3 years.

Every time I participated in a new group. Because I took courses with new batches. There were various problems that I faced due to changing group frequently. I need a long time to adjust with a group of people. For me, nothing is worst and nothing is useless. everything is useful if the thing is used in an effective way. The situation taught me how to survive when time was not favorable.

Similarly, I believe that the bad phase of life is the most amazing moments. Because we don't have fear to loose anything. The next will be definitely better for us at that moment.

I have changed my way to see the world right now. Once I was strict about my philosophy. But now I know world is like the way. In fact, most of the things are illusion. I am quite open minded person and try to understand every's way of thinking.

But it was quite interesting fact for me to attend a new class with new people. I took courses with 10 (origin), 11, 12, 14 and 15 batches. As a result, many persons from different batches know me.

Monday, July 01, 2019 (Short temper)

Drop by drop water creates an ocean after a course of time.

There are 2 types of people existing in the world.

First one is the person who becomes angry quickly and reacts as soon as possible. People call them short temper. Basically people try to avoid any debate or unfavorable saying with them because they may brawl on them. The reasons behind short temper are many including power, position, environment, stress, personality, financial problems, level of education, eating habit and more on. Infact, I have to read a book about short temper to better understand the topic ;). Short temper persons don’t think too much but they need scope to temp. There is a weakness of having it that the person releases all his emotions with his words. That means that his anger becomes low even zero after releasing it. They don’t remember anything about their angriness.

Second one is the person who becomes angry but don’t react very soon. They think and rethink before reacting in an incident. Sometimes they become very angry without any reaction. Basically they consider two things. At first, it is not right time to react. They seek right opportunity to give the proper answer. Secondly, they are inspired by those. They remember those things and take effective measures to avoid future incidents. They will react on right time with right sample.

Basically I respect both of them. Our society has both personalities. But number of short tempers has much more higher than number of cool tempered persons. Everyone tries to make debate for almost everything without using logic. When I use logic, they indicate social norms. When I point out specific social norm, they start talking about other subjects.

I am the second one who becomes angry but don’t react immediately. I remember everything to give an answer on right time with right manner. People think that I don’t understand anything because I don’t react.

Sunday, June 23, 2019 (End of a worst period)

It is 23 June 2019 and my midterm exam ended last day. I have done worse than worst exam one by one. There were poor performances in all the subjects. Basically it was my fault that I did not follow my rules during the period. When someone deviates from his ethics or belief or principle, it is certain to make something wrong or unexpected. But every unsuccessful attempt is a lesson that something is wrong. We just need to figure out the wrong thing and to make it right. At early stage, every unsuccessful attempt disappointed me. With every passing year, I recognized that unsuccessful attempt is an inspiration for me to make it successful. Similarly if something is perfect, it does not mean that it will not be better. A perfect thing also needs modification to cope up with existing situations. So, it is better to find out mistakes and avoid making the same mistakes again and again.

Saturday, May 18, 2019 (A sleepless day)

I have got up today at 1 am. Last day was the most uncomfortable fasting. There were some situations for which it was tough.

At first, I didn’t have a sound sleep. I slept less than 1 hour. Basically I slept around 2 am and got up around 3 am for having my Sehri. After Sehri, I could not sleep. I tried but my attempt was not working. I had a class at 9 am. So there is no scope for sleep rest of the day. 

Secondly, I had an odd class-schedule on Friday. There were 2 classes in which one was from 9 am to 11 am and another was from 2.30 pm to 4.30 pm. The gap time between classes was not useful because there was a 2 hours needed to travel from university to home to university.

Thirdly, the weather was quite hot and unsuitable at all. So, anyone became tired in doing small tasks.

Fourthly, I visited some places in the gap time with my wife. 

Less sleep was the main reason behind feeling worst. I felt like energy less person, brain less and focus less.