Wednesday, January 22, 2020 (Feeling nervous before marriage)

It is 22 January 2020 and only 2 days are remaining for my marriage. Though I was married from 2016, we did not start living together. Finally it’s time to become a family person and to have responsibilities and duties as well. Suddenly I am feeling nervous for unknown reason. Nervousness is commonly found in my character and there is nothing exceptional. Main problem is that I am not focused on household works. But I have some duties now. There are also some random thoughts on mind which make me nervous. Nervousness is better for me because all the good news came in between nervousness in my life ;). 

The relationship is going to get a promotion as the lovers are becoming actual spouses. I still feel that I am in a relationship rather than in a married life. And those feelings are really great. 

I always tried to get time for spending it with her and she also tried same as we lived separated life. 

I can remember those days when we spent a lot of time after completing my working hour and went home very late. Similarly we met in the MBA classes after waiting for ending the classes. 

Everything was very much pleasant. I don’t know about what the next step will be. But everything is okay and hope well for the future.

Tuesday, January 14, 2020 (Facing an awkward situation)

Some people are aggressive which is normal. After all, society also needs aggressive persons to accomplish the goals related to the society. I don't have any hard feeling about them. I always respect other's point of view until they harm me or others. Similarly, most of us don't analyze anything which we see or read. I don't have any complain against them either. But many people spread it without finding the truth. By the way,

What is the truth????

When anything is in his favor, it becomes truth for him. We try to show truth which we want to be rather than it's actual form. Sometimes, we show only selective information to make an event real and hide some parts of event.

When an aggressive person spread an illogical fact without analyzing it, I have objection against him. Because he / she always tries to impose all of his / her illogical thoughts on the society. And society has also no time to analyze it so that an illogical thing will be established.

Superstition is made in the same process and it was made before today and it will be made day after today until we don't analyze everything.

Tuesday, January 07, 2020 (a decade of Facebook)

Everything is like a dream when I see back. It is 10^th year of my Facebook Account. Everything is still new. Because of Facebook, I got many friends specially someone special. I play role in everywhere but I am real in Facebook. 

In the early days, Facebook was just a medium to communicate Mig33 Friends and most of them are foreigners. With every passing day, I found known persons in Facebook. I don’t create any layer. I add all types of people related with me. Maintaining relationship with everyone is not possible but Facebook makes it easier.

Wednesday, January 01, 2020

Another year has just passed. Now it’s 2020 and it is the starting of another year as well as decade. 

The previous year was crucial for me due to various reasons. One of the important events was the movement of professional life. I resigned from Unmesh even without getting a job. I didn't have any plan before 6 months from resigning. By the way, it was a great journey. I changed my outlook and life. I was completely fit in my job and got appreciation & many friends. It is said that nothing lasts forever. In case of happiness, it lasts for a shorter period.

 

I completed my MBA and became a full time student again. I got another job after a small incident. In the second phase, I attended 5 interviews (5 companies) in which 2 are successful and 3 are unsuccessful attempts. I celebrated each and every unsuccessful attempt by giving treat myself because it taught me to correct my mistakes. I always learn from my mistakes and try to find out my mistakes. Similarly, I love to work specially engaged work. 

I hope that the New Year brings some new challenges to me as well as some new problems. And I will be able to sort out every problem. 

Today, all the members of Duronto TV family have celebrated the New Year. Our honorable director sir, Mr. Abhijit Chowdhury, made a rule to be cut the New Year cake by the newest member of their family. And this year it is me. So, I am very glad that I got the opportunity.  

Wednesday, December 25, 2019 (Another year passed)

It's 25th December and my birthday. Another year passed. 

But the last birthday was very important in the first place. Everything was dark from the beginning. Nothing was in my favor. 

But I didn't get frustrated. There were many events where I was near to get frustrated. Every time I controlled myself and tried to improve myself rather than to blame others. The next way is definitely harder. 

Similarly I got opportunity to become a full time student again which was definitely a dream. 

Another year passed and another year is over from my whole life today. I don't have much things to describe today. :) 

Wednesday, December 11, 2019

Life is very complicated in my case but every is okay. One of the two scenarios may be  here. Firstly, everything is actually okay but I am just overthinking every single fact. Secondly, everything seems to be okay but somethings are seriously worst in the life.

I think too much negative for myself as I expect less for myself. Expecting less is not my weakness but it is my one of the best quality. Because it gives me satisfaction with every small achievement. Failure is also a reason for me to celebrate due to learning from it.

I feel everything impossible when I see back. Because a single distraction may have changed my present greatly. I see everything nebulous when I see forward. I never see a clear image about my future because known fact never happens in the life. There are too much uncertainties for the certain events.

At the end of the day, uncertainty seems better and it surprises me. I always prefer uncertainty and surprises from life. 

Friday, December 13, 2019 (intership defense of MBA)

I have completed all the formal and informal exams of my MBA course. Today I have attended Defense for thesis paper and the journey has ended with this event. As I mentioned in my previous blog that the duration was like the duration of my BBA. 

But the journey was not easy to carry on. There were too much difficulties and struggles. In fact, those struggles made me stronger. Many times, I felt that things were worst. But I was happy to know sun hiding behind the cloud. Someday, the sun would be visible again. 

But I didn't know when I could not tell about struggles and difficulty to my father. There were many things to express but no words are told. I know I am introvert but I should have told those. With every single passing day, I realize that I should have told him. 

By the way, it's just another step in my study life. I know life is a journey and it is definitely not the end of the study life. 

Friday, December 06, 2019 (Time and Life)

I thought last day that the day would be big and relaxing. I got up at 10.00 Am and got ready to accomplish some tasks. I left home at 12.00 pm and hoped to return before 3.00 pm. But I reached home at 5.20 pm. The day is almost over in the blink of an eye. At the ending moment, I am thinking what I have done today. The answer is nothing significant. 

In case of life, the same role is applicable. When we realize about life, the half of life is over. Because school, college and university life end quickly than our expectation. Then we focus on career and are busy with achieving goals. After then, we realize the life is almost at the end and we did nothing is in life. For most of the cases, things like this happen.