Sunday, December 8, 2024 (Why I hate my school life)

I neither liked nor remember my school life fondly, as I consider it the darkest period of my life due to numerous unpleasant incidents. I am aware that most people cherish their school days and often reflect on many happy moments. However, for me, there were only a few pleasant memories overshadowed by overwhelmingly negative experiences.

 

Aggressive Teachers and Punishments

The teachers were very aggressive and often resorted to physical punishment for incomplete homework. Similarly, they would beat students for talking in class during lessons. A few teachers even mistreated students without any apparent reason, which created a hostile and intimidating environment.

 

Lack of Proper Teaching

Secondly, the teachers focused more on assigning and checking homework than on actual teaching. If homework was not completed, students were punished. They failed to provide proper instruction, and I often had many questions but was too afraid to ask. There was a time when I genuinely wanted to learn, but the teachers seemed uninterested in imparting knowledge. As a result, staying at home and studying independently felt like a better option for me.

 

The Impact of Poor Exam Evaluation Practices

Thirdly, I noticed that the teachers did not evaluate exam papers properly. Despite putting in my best effort, I often received low marks due to improper grading. Conversely, there were times when my performance was poor, yet I received better marks because of their lack of attention to detail. This inconsistency discouraged me and made me lose hope that hard work would lead to better grades. Since I was not a top-performing student, my efforts were often overlooked.

 

Isolation and Lack of Friendship

Fourthly, I did not have any close friends after completing primary school. There was no mutual bond with my peers, and my introverted nature made forming friendships even more difficult. My introversion was particularly extreme during my school years, which added to my sense of isolation.

 

Irregular Attendance and Missed Memories

Fifthly, I rarely attended classes regularly because I saw little value in doing so, especially after primary school. Consequently, I missed many events and have very few memories of those years.

 

Absence of Achievements

Lastly, I did not achieve anything noteworthy during my school life. While many students received prizes and accolades, I have no such memories to cherish.

 

In contrast, the last two years of my school life were not as bad. I was determined to pass my SSC examination and became very focused in classes 9 and 10. Although I was very weak in English, I worked hard to improve through consistent effort.

Overall, there was nothing significant or positive about my school life due to all these challenges. It remains a period I would rather forget.

Tuesday, December 3, 2024 (December: A Time for Hope and Change)

A sense of tension within me is rising day by day. At the moment, I cannot see ahead clearly as everything around me feels nebulous. I have started many things for the first time, but I need to develop a skill because I learn slowly. Finding solutions and discovering techniques to overcome these challenges is my hope. December has often been a month of limited achievements in my past, but I am hopeful that this year might be different.

Wedness day, November 11, 2024 (After a long busy period)

I have been busy for an extended period, which caused me to neglect my blog. One of my main challenges is that I sometimes lose track of my activities. However, once I resolve the underlying issues, I resume them as usual. Recently, I encountered several disruptions, including health concerns, a vacation, and some unexpected events.

Notably, I visited Cox's Bazar for the third time, and it was an immensely enjoyable trip. My first visit was with relatives and family members, which was a memorable experience. Unfortunately, toward the end of the previous month, I fell ill, which resulted in my complete absence from blogging.

Thursday, September 5, 2024 (One month of Bangladesh 2.0)

So, it's like the first month of Bangladesh's independence all over again. Some may say the country gained independence in 1971, but for the past decade, freedom of speech has been entirely absent from our society. If I voiced concerns about social, economic, or other issues, those in power would take action against me. Until now, I have not been able to cast my vote according to my own conscience.

People always knew that this regime would eventually fall, but they were too afraid to speak up. However, the government's excessive threats caused people to lose their fear of death, and that became the very reason for its downfall.

Friday, August 23, 2024 (Natural Disasters)

A large section of people are affected by flood now especially in the district of Comilla and near by districts. People have been suffering a lot due to raising water level. 

Monday, August 05, 2024 (An Unthinkable Victory: The End of a Dictator's Reign)

It is an unbelievable day for the nation as Sheikh Hasina, the dictator who controlled the media, law enforcement agencies, and legal system, has just fled from Bangladesh. As a result, people have revived democracy and are celebrating the victory. It is a hard slap to the face of an arrogant fascist ruler.

This morning, I was very sad to find out that they had turned off the internet. I was worried about the students, as the police had killed many during the last internet shutdown. I was deeply disappointed, but the whole nation became joyful upon hearing that she had fled the country.

I went to TSC and Shahid Minar to join the celebrations, and I saw that everyone on the streets was very happy and openly raising their voices, something that had been missing from our country. I am 30 years old and have never been able to vote with my own consent. I just hope for a future where I can raise my voice without fear.

 

 

Sunday, August 05, 2024 (A sleepless night for the nation)

It is 5 AM, and the entire nation is awake with anticipation, as the road march to Dhaka (name of the movement) is set to take place tomorrow. There is a widespread hope for a peaceful victory, as no one desires any bloodshed. In recent days, we have witnessed numerous distressing events, including today, when over 100 people, including students, police officers, and civilians, lost their lives. Everyone is hoping for a positive resolution to this situation.

Tuesday, July 30, 2024

I have not been feeling well for the past few days due to the ongoing dire situation in the country. Additionally, it is the death anniversary of my father. Although our relationship was not very close, we respected each other in our own ways. I deeply miss him now, but it is impossible to have him with me.

Monday, 29 July, 2024 (Restlessness inside me)

I don't know how to explain anything or describe the situation. Everything is messed up, and I feel ashamed that I have seen it. There are many things inside me, but I have been feeling restless for a few days. I feel like I want to cry so loudly that the pain of all the untold words can be removed from me. Feeling like a paralyzed person is no joke at all.

Monday, July 15, 2024 (The Joy of Overcoming Obstacles)

Overcoming barriers to face the next one has become a part of my life nowadays. I try to solve a problem and don’t have any opportunity to celebrate after successfully completing the work, as another issue always arises to tackle. This cycle repeats for me, which is quite an enjoyable activity since I love finding solutions to difficulties. Life without struggles is quite boring for me. Many people find such situations unpleasant, but I consider them a delightful period. I believe that if I finish all my tasks, I would have nothing left to live for. Restlessness always reminds me that I am still alive.

 

 

Saturday, July 6, 2024 (Why do people not give up their ego?)

Before starting the main topic, I was an arrogant and extremist person before 2016. At a certain time of my life, I recognized about my wrong way of thinking. I thought I was someone who was special. My decisions were right at any time. But I was misguided and the environment & people surrounding me influenced me to make those attitude. I have been changing myself for more than 8 years now. Though some people know about their fault, they never try to correct themself, and they start showing logic in order to transferring the incorrect thing into a wealthy thing. Certain individuals around me are quite radical and does not try to accept the real things at all. It is deeply distressing to recognize that they are unlikely to ever change, and their persistent aggressiveness could pose significant dangers for them in the future.

Friday, July 05, 2024 (A comeback)

Finally, I got an expected result for my IELTS band. It was my second attempt for which I sat on examination on 22.06.24. In my first try, I got band 6 with all having 6 or more. I needed 6.5 for applying. This time my expectation was below 6 as I did not do my best at all in case of reading and writing and expected band 5 and 5.5 respectively. However, I got band 6 in both of them. For the listening part, I was confident that it would be more than band 7 and it is actually 7.5. Similarly, I thought speaking would be at least 6 which is little higher (6.5) than this. Hence, it was quiet satisfactory result for me. After a long period of time, I have experienced the pressure of examination and excitement of seeing results.

Monday, June 22, 2024 (spending a busy period)

I have been being busy for the last two months due to preparation of exam, sickness of my mother, work, some personal issues and many more. Writing any thing became a tough task for a lack of time and energy. Though I try hard to finish all of my works as soon as possible in order to take a peaceful rest, the number of works or unfinished activities are never fully over for me, maybe for all. 

Monday, April 29, 2024 (Dostana)

Watching a movie again after a long time can make you see it in a new perspective, like meeting an old friend and discovering new things to like about them. I recently watched a film that I saw in 2009 last time. It's called "Dostana," and I noticed how great it is in ways I didn't understand when I was younger. As I've grown up, I've started to understand movies better and see why they're special. Let me talk about what's great about this movie.

Dostana" has a ordinary story that is presented in a unique way. It mixes surprises and humor that fits naturally. The jokes are not awkward; they fit perfectly into the story, making us laugh for real, not just because we should. The dialogues in the movie are suitable; they're not cringe at all which is common in the movies now a days. However, that's not the highlight of the film.

But what really stands out are the songs in the movie. They fit perfectly into the story, making it feel more emotional. "Kuch Kam" is full of feelings, and "Jane Kyu" and "Khabar Nahi" are catchy too. All the songs add to the movie's appeal by mixing music with storytelling in a lovely way.

But apart from the music and comedy, "Dostana" does a great job showing how important friendship is. The strong bond between the three main characters shows how lasting friendships are valuable. Seeing their friendship grow and stay strong through tough times feels real to viewers. This genuine portrayal of friendship makes "Dostana" different from other movies that just show friendships on the surface.

In a time when there are lots of movies coming out, "Dostana" reminds us how important relationships and real friendships are. It has great music, real jokes, and a captivating story that make it a classic that people still love, no matter when they watch it.

 

 

Thursday, April 25, 2024 (Silence is the need of time)

It's quite surprising to witness extremism in various forms around me, whether it be righ-wing or left-wing extremism. It's frustrating to see people leaning so heavily towards extreme views without considering the mid points that exist in between. Life is not just black and white; there are countless shades of grey in between. I had always believed in maintaining a balanced and moderate stance, which has allowed me to realize about actual situation. 

Looking back, the times when i chose to remain silent and steer clear of extremism were some of the best moments of my life. I intend to continue with this tendency in the future, as I believe it brings a sense of peace and rationality.

Saturday, April 06, 2024 (Exploring Nature's Beauty: A Journey of Discovery on 06.02.24)

Date: Tuesday, February 06, 2024 

Place: Cox's Bazar 

 

Introduction 

It's a rarity for me to feature any product or service on my blog. But I am going to write about a service that I have experienced a few day ago. I always believe that I am late in many things but I never forgot to mention those. 

 

Origin and beginning

Essentially, my desire was to explore into the Southern area of Cox's Bazar and I searched the way to accomplish it. Then I came to know about Aquaholic Tourist Caravan which offered same service. We had multiple options such as Chander Gari or regular cars, but they were less suitable due to the absence of food and toilet facilities. Consequently, we opted for the Aquaholic Tourist Caravan.

Due to maintenance on a bridge, the bus was unable to travel through the city. Initially, we traveled to Upal, and from there, we proceeded to the bridge using a vehicle known as Chander Gari. The journey lasted around 45 minutes, proving to be quite delightful given the morning ambiance. I could enjoy the view of the sea with the hills behind me.

Sonar Para Beach

After we reached the specified place, we spent more than 30 minutes at Sonar Para Beach, which was fantastic. Unlike the busy beaches of Cox's Bazar, this place was very quiet and peaceful. Everyone took lots of photos, and for me, places with fewer people are the best.

 

The bus

The bus design was ideal for the tour because the colors matched its purpose perfectly. I admired the designer for this. The design's beauty spoke volumes about the service. I chose the upper deck seats to have a clear view of everything around me.

 

Journey by bus and about the journey

The bus journey started around 11 AM and everything unfolded seamlessly. The weather was pleasantly clear and warm but a refreshing wind provided relief from the heat. During the outbound journey, my seat was on the side of the sea, while on the return trip, I got views of the rolling hills. I skipped the opposite site and only focused on enjoying the serene view of the sea. 

 

 

 

About Patuartek

After a while, we arrived at Patuartek Beach and it was seemed like a mini Saint Martin. The only exception was the hill that was absent in Saint Martin's land. While other bus passengers were excited to see the coral, my excitement was subdued. Because I had already spent four days exploring Saint Martin prior to the tour. However, my attention was drawn to the panoramic hill view, which added to the beauty of the scene.

 

Journey towards Teknaf Zero point

Our journey towards Teknaf resumed after 12 pm. The roads gradually became less crowded as we traveled further. The journey was quite peaceful, with the wind providing pleasure and the music adding extra enjoyment to the ongoing moments.We encountered a variety of sights, from Jhau trees lining the seaside to salt cultivation, sunflower farms, red crabs, and much more. Some places seemed incredibly exotic and one-of-a-kind. Shampans, a type of fishing boat, were seen everywhere, amplifying the vibrant atmosphere as fishermen performed their duties. The place felt quiet with fewer people and lots of natural beauties. We were fascinated by the lush landscapes surrounding us. Every moment there was a peaceful break from city hustle. It reminded us of the special coordination between humans and nature. As it's a border area with Myanmar, we proceeded through several checkpoints, one by one, getting closer to our final destination with each crossing. As we got closer, we spotted tall hills in the distance, towering over the landscape. I loved and enjoyed the moment, surrounded by the beauty of nature, with the sea, coral, boats, and hills all around me. 

 

About Teknaf Zero Point

The bus arrived at Teknaf zero point around 1 pm. I noticed that beyond this point, there was no concrete road; instead, there was a brick road leading further south. The area was restricted, and tourists were not permitted to go beyond that point.We visited the beach, which was incredibly beautiful and devoid of crowds once again. Everyone was busy taking pictures on the beach. There was a slight smokiness in the air.

 

 

 

There were many holes where baby crabs sought shelter, and a variety of sea shells were scattered around the area. The southern side had a particularly high concentration of these features.

 

About Lunch Break

We only traveled a short distance before stopping for lunch. After our break, we went back to the beach, where we saw lots of Shampans (fishing boats) and fishermen getting ready to fish using their traditional methods. 

About A coral Beach

We went to the beach near Mathabanga Puraton Union, which is known as a coral beach. The upper deck shelter of the bus was removed, turning it into an open-deck bus. I had a fantastic view of the entire sky, which was an amazing experience. During the journey, I had the opportunity to see rolling hills in the distance, which was a delightful experience. This view was something I had missed when we first arrived at our destination.The beach had a lot more rocks compared to Saint Martin's, and they were densely packed, creating a unique landscape.

 

 

Sunset at Patuateak

Later on, the bus head back to Patuateak Beach to catch the sunset. When we arrived at the beach, it was around 5:05 PM, and the atmosphere was surprisingly peaceful despite the large crowds. I felt a sense of calmness wash over me as I took in the serene moment.

 

 

 

After a while we again went towards Patuateak Beach to see the sunset. Finally we reached our final destination of the beach. it was almost 5.05 PM and The moment was quite calm even though there was a lot of crowds but I felt quite calm. Since it was the final day of our 8-day holiday, I also felt a bit disheartened. However, the view of the hills opposite Patuateak looked absolutely amazing, which lifted my spirits. 

Ending

After enjoying the sunset, we made our way to Sonar Para Beach to catch the Chander Gari, which would take us back to the main city of Cox's Bazar. And that wraps up our day.

Final Words

It was a full-day tour that we thoroughly enjoyed. They provided us with all the meals, including lunch, soft drinks, breakfast, tea, and evening snacks. For breakfast, we had apples, sandwiches, and water, while lunch included rice with three other curry dishes. Our evening snacks consisted of chicken fries and buns. The overall quality of the dishes was excellent, with freshness and deliciousness combined. It was truly a great experience to enjoy such high-quality food in those locations where good restaurants were not available.

 

The washroom facilities were impeccably clean and well-maintained. The seats on the bus were very comfortable for the journey. The best aspect was that all the couples were part of the tour, which meant there was no extra noise or disturbance. This created a calm and peaceful atmosphere throughout the trip.The music they played added an extra flavor to the journey.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Friday, April 04, 2024 (Observing unusual weather patterns)

During my early years, I experienced extremely cold weather, and the winter season seemed to last much longer than it does now. Nowadays, it's becoming more common to have rainy days in December or January. Additionally, summers are becoming increasingly harsh. These observations are based on my personal experiences rather than information from any source.

Changes will not happen soon for developing countries as we encounter challenges with basic necessities on a daily basis. By the time we realize the full extent of the situation, it will be too late. We often prioritize fulfilling short-term needs and overlook the long-term consequences.

Everything we learn in school and college is restricted to our textbooks. In real life, our focus often shifts to mere survival.

 

 

 

 

(Note: I use ChatGPT to improve my sentence structure, but the ideas are mine, with ChatGPT helping me make them better.)

Saturday, March 16, 2024 (A victorious failure in academic life)

Anticipation filled the air as I awaited the results of my Secondary School Certificate (SSC) examination in November. Having performed well in the pre-test examination, numerous classmates and I were optimistic about my success. Rumors circulated that nine students, including myself, had passed. Despite the promising signs, my confidence waned when, just twenty minutes before the official announcement, I received confirmation of my failure. The revelation left me stunned and disheartened. Despite clinging to hope until the last moment, the reality was stark—I had not succeeded. The subsequent feelings of frustration and disappointment were overwhelming.

That day marked a low point in my academic journey. Despite facing repeated failures, I refused to be deterred. Indeed, each setback served as fuel for my determination to persevere.

In the last seven years, it was the first time I dared to hope for success in all subjects. Despite the outcome, I never viewed it as a failure.

Tuesday, March 12, 2024 (Another Ramadan)

Over the past few years, Ramadan has been starting closer to the winter season. I've begun to notice the chill of winter creeping into the late night, a sensation that had been absent for quite some time. The weather now feels a lot like it did during Ramadan in 2005/2006, probably around September or October. It's nice to be reminded of those past Ramadan memories by the similar weather we're having now.Time moves on its own, and I've experienced a lot as it goes by. Someday, everything will come to an end for me, but I'm okay with it because it's just how nature works.

Sunday, February 04, 2024 (facing fear)

Everyone has some specific fears such as pyrophobia, aquaphobia, acrophobia etc. It is not a physical disease but a mental condition. Anyone can get rid of his or her agitation by facing it directly. 

I had recognized a weakness when I was in class 3. I went to the rooftop of my school. The school was only a 4 stoyed building but I feared of that height. I never try to reduce my anxiety for acrophobia. Hence, the same level of unease remains inside me still now. 

I decided to do something adventurous but did not get too much options at all. It is very hard to try out an adventurous activity in our country (I maybe wrong). The most easy option was parasailing as it could be done in very short time with proper setup. So, I went with this idea. 

My wife wanted to do the same thing and she has done it before me today. I have got nervous after seeing too much high and I have just become hopeless. 

Finally I made up my mind to do it and started walking toward the starting point. Though I was highly strung, I kept Smiling. It is a common phenomenon of mine to keep smiling during an expected event. Firstly I felt some pushing pressure of wind while going up. Then I just checked whether everything was okay. I was extremely stressful and felt very uncomfortable. I saw the rope attached with me and then I saw only the boat at a first glance. Then I tried to move my eyes here and there. The colour of water seemed to be blue. For one moment, I thought why I was there. But I got my answer eventually. In the mid way, I was quite far from land and saw a lot of boats in the deep area of the sea. On the other hand, I could see the hills of Himchhori. The view was unexplainable for me due to nervousness and excitement. I assumed that the air tried to say something to me. At the end, I was very careful to land safely as an accidental event could take place. But I successful landed with the help of crews.

Monday, January 29, 2024 (an over ignored problem)

A lot of problems are faced by people and they try to avoid making any step against it. Those attitudes are the main obstacles to become a better place. We are not aware about our rights. 

First time when I travelled in a CNG was in 2004. It was a great experience as I charged as per meter. The price was very reasonable and they always charged money according to meter. Then drivers of CNG started claiming some more money in additional to meter reading after few years later. People ignored those unfair claims. For this, they bargained for the fare totally ignoring the meter system and the system still exists now. Though I have noticed a meter inside a CNG, I forget about it.

The problem was recognised by media in many occasions but taken steps were not effective enough. 

Tuesday, January 25, 2024 ( feeling like an orphan)

I had never a great bond with my father. But my father knew me very well. In fact, he knew me more than anyone until 2016. I always avoided to share any feelings with my friends. As a result, it was very tough for anyone to predict my feelings. Somehow, he understood me without saying a word. 

Though I had never a great conversation with him, I had a desire to tell him very things about my life, vision, and many more. Staying like a shadow, he always tried to protect me from this world. He knew that my knowledge about the world was very limited. 

I have learnt many things and lost much more things. It is very hard to take decision against folks. However wealth has a power to destroy everything even ...............

Monday, January 08, 2024 (Danger often comes where danger is feared)

A series of rumours are taken place which are not desirable for any sensible person. There is a huge fear of being robbed by the robbers and people make too much panic. Hence, a scared environment exists around me. It started at the beginning of the month and maybe there were some robberies happened in reality. Consequently, people have generated various conspiracy theories and people are getting more afraid of it. 

A lots of news about robberies have been posted in every hour at night in Facebook. However, the ground reality is totally different. People get scared after hearing any sound of talking of people due to existing situation and start making noise. 

I saw a YouTube video on the incident of "Monkey man" a year ago and it is a classic example of how people behaviour are influenced in a society for rumours.

From my point of view, it is a rumour and it has a negative impact on the society. Afterall, Danger often comes where danger is feared.

Monday, January 01, 2024 (Hoping for changing path in this new year)

It is very rare event for me to write something in New year. Writing on the occasion of a unknown year is a great way to get motivated and I need some kicks for the year. However, I did not write any thing in the last couples of years on that day. Situation is very different and challenging in some extent. 

Planning of my life was over in 2020 and I never though about any goal or large vision after 2020. The situation which I face is very unique as I always have some plans and a series of alternatives. So, I have decided something about my planning toward 2030. Hence, it is a very different year for making some serious decision rather than just following any previous plans. 

I want to become a struggle again. Of course, no one likes that he faces hard time once again. Because everyone enjoys the result after overcoming hardship. I know my mood switches after a point of time. An ideal man is focused on the target made by him. Controlling emotion is the only solution of my problem. In contrast, I always enjoy the period of struggling as I can learn a lot of new things in between the periods. I don't have any regret about my behavior because it makes me. The personality of any individual depends on many criteria and liking hardship is one of the best quality I guess.